I’m scared - Dealing with fear of break-ins at night & seeking support

[beaneeboo]

Not sure if I'm allowed to use the forum in this way. Sorry if not.

It's 1.30am...
I can't sleep. I'm scared someone's going to break in and hurt me and my son. I feel really vulnerable. I'm on the brink- I know it's not logical. But my brain is hearing every single tiny noise in the house and outside. And each time it does it sets off my nervous system.

I think it would help to know someone is there. I know you can't do anything

 

[LuckiLee]

Hearing you.

 

[beaneeboo]

Hearing you.

Thank you

 

[Rose White]

@beaneeboo do you know your local crisis number? Not the 211 but the local one? They will talk to you when you feel panicky at any time. You don’t have to be suicidal to talk, just feeling overwhelmed and scared is enough.

 

[beaneeboo]

@beaneeboo do you know your local crisis number? Not the 211 but the local one? They will talk to you when you feel panicky at any time. You don’t have to be suicidal to talk, just feeling overwhelmed and scared is enough.

I'm not confident enough to call... I can't speak... I want to get up and move around to shake myself out of it but can't... it is helping being on here.. I'm trying to also distract myself with videos

 

[whiteraven]

So sorry you're struggling, @beaneeboo. We're here.

 

[beaneeboo]

So sorry you're struggling, @beaneeboo. We're here.

Thank you... it is helping knowing others can hear me...

Thank you everyone

 

[Movingforward10]

I'm not confident enough to call... I can't speak... I want to get up and move around to shake myself out of it but can't... it is helping being on here.. I'm trying to also distract myself with videos

There are some crisis lines that are online chats as opposed to a phone call. That might work next time? I did that once and it helped. They stayed chatting online to me until I emailed my T and then I was ok enough to end the chat.

Hope this feeling has passed for you now.

 

[beaneeboo]

Thanks @Movingforward10 ... I did know about this but I'd forgotten about it.. so if it happens again hopefully I'll remember..I have to say coming on here and just getting the responses I did helped alot...

The feeling has passed now thanks...I only got 3 hours sleep though and now have to work... I'm happy to get out of the house to break the high adrenaline I'm feeling but I'm exhausted and feel quite low.. I'm going for a walk after I've finished with my client so that will help

 

[Movingforward10]

Glad you are going for a walk and doing self care.

 

[Friday]

Does this happen often enough that you’re looking for a game plan to manage it, or is/was this so rare you were caught flat-footed, making everything worse?

 

[beaneeboo]

Does this happen often enough that you’re looking for a game plan to manage it, or is/was this so rare you were caught flat-footed, making everything worse?

Um kind of both... it hasn't happened for quite a while... but it's something that has happened consistently (on and off in pockets) over the course of my life...I don't know what triggers it... though. Having a baby certainly did for a long time...on leaving home at 18 it happenedalot (accompanied with panic attacks etc)... I even remember being under 10 and it happening at home in my bed even with a trusted care giver at home and there being no indication that I was in danger there... I think it's a long standing deep seated fear...

I think because it's been happening for so long, I've come to accept that it's just something that comes up and I have to deal with it by taking it on the chin.
I don't know what a game plan would look like since i don't understand what takes me to that place ... can't predict it...it creeps up...

Any suggestions welcomed