...and I don't know what to say.
I was told I had ptsd about 5 or 6 year ago by a therapist I was seeing at the time. She told me I disconnect when I speak of my passed. That I was reliving it as I remembered it. I don't know I thought everyone remembered that way. I never really understood it much. Just that I don't feel part of, or that I don't want to feel part of.
I don't like crowds even if it is a church function. I have a hard time getting to know others and if there is something about them that bothers me I avoid them like the plague, leaves very few that I am willing to call friends. I struggle with socializing with others, just caring on a normal conversation. It drives me crazy at time.
I do find with one on one or in very small groups but I can't just go to a picnic and talk to people. I am done.
I was told I had ptsd about 5 or 6 year ago by a therapist I was seeing at the time. She told me I disconnect when I speak of my passed. That I was reliving it as I remembered it. I don't know I thought everyone remembered that way. I never really understood it much. Just that I don't feel part of, or that I don't want to feel part of.
I don't like crowds even if it is a church function. I have a hard time getting to know others and if there is something about them that bothers me I avoid them like the plague, leaves very few that I am willing to call friends. I struggle with socializing with others, just caring on a normal conversation. It drives me crazy at time.
I do find with one on one or in very small groups but I can't just go to a picnic and talk to people. I am done.
