Actualise thank you so much, what you have said, it made me tear up. Because of things in my earlier life I had to try to understand signs in adults what was coming next like their tone changing or a look in their eyes or change of expression. I didn't know what i was doing as a child by doing that, it was just a way of protecting myself but years went by and it was my daily way of life it gave me the strong empathetic ability and very sensitive to peoples behaviour. I understand the current paradigm we all live under is materialistic which clashes with my personal paradigm. I think using Maslow's hierarchy of needs I'm stuck at the 2nd base level of safety. My rage is triggered by the cruel and heartless, the physical abusive bullies. I had situation recently where I saw someone in my street arguing with some one who had a cat and was threating to poison the cat if the cat came into their garden again. I left my house like a switch in my head had been flipped and grab the man threating and threatened him, I was later visited by the police who spoke to me but no action was taken. How do I shift this reaction? my wife worries I'll get hurt or worse, once again one of the reasons I can't leave the house. I help people emotionally in my life whenever i can because of my empathy, I feel for them but I can have the strength to help them when they are at a low ebb because I draw on my own experience and give them that strength.