I Don't Think I Should Be Here Anymore - Even My Therapist Is Quitting On Me.

[RussH]

I'm already on my second therapist, and rehashing all my crap with a second person was just awful. I can't do it again.

I am not sure, but I don't think you would need to rehash your past with a new therapist. I think you could give your present therapist permission to share your file with a new therapist, and that would bring them up to speed.

As for the rest, yes life is a struggle, but it is worth living. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Yes, I know PTSD seems to be a permanent problem, but it can be beaten.

We need you here, so please hang tough, don't let this crap beat you.

 

[Emotional Retard]

@RussH,

I appreciate your words. I wish I could be as positive and confident as you. I don't feel like my PTSD can be beaten... I have been like this since I was four years old. I've never known anything else. And even if I were to beat it, I have so many other problems that really are permanent. :(

 

[Ghostybear73]

I think about suicide at least 2-3 times a week. One of the things I think of is how easy it would be. You're still alive so you have fought this long. Sometimes I get tired of fighting, but I have to really think about who I am. Am I someone who quits at things and always take the easy route, well no or I wouldn't be where I am today. Write down a list of the reasons you should fight (and not when you are thinking about suicide, wait till you get a break), then look at them when you do get to that point.

You may not feel like PTSD is beatable, but it is. I'm not doubting your feelings, I'm saying maybe you need to challenge the way you think. You seem to be very insistent that nothing will work, but If you open your options, you may find something that does. Maybe a group class, rather than an individual therapy session at first. I agree with RussH though, you shouldn't have rehash everything again!!!

 

[ms spock]

Is this the T we discussed in another thread that doesn't really have the trauma specific skills that you need?