DID I don't want to integrate

[TruthSeeker]

I made a post on a different forum talking about my DID, and a bunch of people (who don't have DID) told...

It is good to hear others opinions on this subject. I haven't known that long that I have this diagnosis, but I found drawing helped access the emotions and feelings that words couldn't express....and color. My goal is to integrate. I'm an all out there kinda person, too talkative, too honest for my own good, musical, and very creative. I'd like for all of me to feel welcome to experience the pleasures I feel as well as carry the memories....for like in the book Giver....which I so identify with, Jonas gave all the memories back to the community....so that they could feel more deeply....so that they could have the memories to help become better problem solvers and protect the community....so that they could become true individuals....and I think integration is the key. I don't believe parts of the personality are killed....I think they unite...and when united....I will be stronger, more confident, more self aware, more able to share myself without reservation with others... ....... a whole person...and I will still appreciate all of me....even the not so nice part of me.....I believe I can then, and only then, feel real satisfaction and contentment. It works for me....but it may not work for everyone. This is such a personal decision for anyone considering integration....because it is a lot of work...and there is a lot of pain involved...but I don't care....I want what was stolen from me...wholeness.

 

[Ronin]

Not sure if it helps, but I tend to think of integration as in integration of experiences, trauma, troublesome patterns.... not people and parts people ceasing existing.

As in integration of experience, so it is not disturbing,
Not as in integration of people that parted their ways in some way already.

 

[Blue Survivor]

I do not have DID but I would imagine that you feel like you are losing a part/parts of yourself. If your therapist says that you don't "have" to then I would not see a point in rushing. Again - I do not have DID, and I hope this does not offend anyone who does.

 

[whiteraven]

If your therapist says that you don't "have" to then I would not see a point in rushing.

Even if a therapist says you "have" to, it's your own decision. Nobody can *make* you integrate.

 

[Noise]

Even if a therapist says you "have" to, it's your own decision. Nobody can *make* you integrate.[/Q...

If your therapist says that you don't "have" to then I would not see a point in rushing

I mean I really don't want to like we're pretty functional and honestly yeah we still have some problems in the system but nobody's perfect.

Honestly I don't think itd be healthy for me to integrate fully.

 

[TruthSeeker]

Since this can't be seen, it should make one stop and ponder the meaning of normalcy. I think we are all made of parts, and many theorists believe in parts as a normal process. Whose to say which model is correct? Everyone's personality, values and morals, creativity, and experiences are different. I think everyone has parts.....just some people may be a little less connected than others or a little less/more functional. I think it is just a matter of perception since parts and imagination can't be measured.

 

[whiteraven]

Since this can't be seen, it should make one stop and ponder the meaning of normalcy. I think we are al...

I was just reading about this tonight. In fact, there are different definitions of "self," depending on who you read and what you believe or accept as "reality." We have come to accept that there is one self/consciousness and that having multiple selves is abnormal. But not all cultures think that way nor is that the only theory about personality and consciousness.