I Found A Therapist!

[winterose]

Therapy was hard. I was trying to equate how what happened with the cops, etc how their bad work reflected on why I was worthless. So we waded through it. I get what he is saying but there is something even deeper here. He did confirm I was on the right track. I'm getting to the heart of stuff but there is an issue even deeper. And once that is figured out then the ability to heal from it is going to be alot of hard work.

I'm trying to wrap my head around the "so many people let me down", when I tried to stand up, I didn't think of it this way. New way to think.

 

[MagiLisu]

Therapy can be very hard, and some sessions have left me feeling low and exhausted but I know that the next session can be so different. It's hard but keep going.

 

[safenow]

'm trying to wrap my head around the "so many people let me down", when I tried to stand up,

That was a hard stage for me as well. You can do this, winterose. I'm glad you are working on healing with a good therapist. Please, remember, Rome wasn't built in a day, and healing takes time as well as hard work. But it will be wonderful when it's over, and will last you a lifetime.

Take good care, safenow

 

[winterose]

Therapy was ok. WoW do I got a tangle mess of worth, empathy, being nice, being strong, setting boundaries etc. All confused mess of tangled confusion. We are going to start taking it apart piece by piece next week.

I am really hoping we sell the house tomorrow because I can only afford once a week sessions right now. And I need more then that. Too much hits me during the week.

 

[Tanishq]

:tup: Winterose. It is working for you.

 

[winterose]

Yes, Jaret, it unleashed a mess of stuff. I got therapy this evening. I will be so glad. Pressure cooker of nightmares and self doubt crept in like the dirty thieves they are.

 

[winterose]

Therapy was hell tonight. We are working on letting go and grief. Facing that sometimes life just hurts, whatever the situation is. Raw form, no coping mechanisms, no control over it, no denial, nothing. It JUST hurts. And learning to realize it to better understand how it operates. How we see things, view situations, beliefs, emotions, survival, all that feed into PTSD symptoms. So I had to sit with the pain without any judgements what so ever. OUCH.

 

[Tanishq]

:hug: Winterose.

I understand. When bad memories come in my mind, it does hurt me so much. It becomes so much alive.