I Have To Tell Someone...

[Isabelle]

I am just making it through this day, this season, I hate it, it hurts, I depersonalize, dissasociate, my feet haven't touched the ground. I can't seem to find it. I know it is there somewhere. This season messes with my sense of safety and I feel lost and left. I'm so triggered.

 

[Sterre]

Dear Issabelle, Not to long ago this could have been /was my feeling.I hear you!
There Will come à point were your feet are going to touch ground again. Some dirt and twigs that break beneath your feet, you will land again!!!
Hang in there, you are not aLone!

 

[Heather]

I am sorry you are having such a hard time! From someone who knows what it likes to ache inside from every point of her being, I hear you! and it sucks...hang in and use this site there are so many amazing, wonderful people here that will give you a world of support. I hope we both find peace soon. Heather

 

[Darkness Shines]

Yes, the holidays are a terrible trigger for my family as well. The 'holiday seasons' of 2008 and especially 2009 were pure Hell-on-Earth for us. This year, so far at least, we've coped much better, I suppose because we've all developed better coping skills over the last year. I know how hard it is, though.

When all else fails, I try to remember that it's only for X more days and then the holidays will be over for another year. Hugs, and I'll be around if you want to talk.

Adelaide

 

[kers]

Isabelle, I feel exactly the same way. I haven't been in my body for three days and I know, from experience, that it's going to take a few more before I am back to normal. But the season passes, and so does the dissociation. I usually try to do a lot of extra self-care at this time, things like laying in bed reading trashy books and watching funny movies, or doing things that help me express what I'm feeling (or not feeling) such as artwork.

You are definitely not alone with this today.

 

[WantToGetBetter]

You're not alone Isabelle.