I'm gonna start this by saying that I have major trust issues, which often leads me to getting anxiety attacks about small things. For instance, today I was expecting a package from Amazon but it didn't come. I'd been waiting for it all day and I was beyond furious when it didn't come.
What started the fight was that I told my parents that I was going to call the post office and see if we could just pick the package up (the tracking information said that it was at our local post office). My parents didn't want me to (I don't remember why), which resulted in my dad suspending my phone and my mom locking herself in her room. (He's since reinstalled it)
My dad and I yelled at each other back and forth for a while until my mom came back downstairs. Once things calmed down a little I ended up letting a lot out. I told them that I'm actually terrified about my case (I'm suing the teacher that caused my PTSD in the first place, as are the families of several other children that she abused). I said that I'm scared that the attorneys on the opposing side will find a way to break me and scare me out of going any further, among other things.
I also said that ever since I was in that class, I've had a hard time trusting anyone. I always feel like I have to keep my guard up because if I don't I'll just get hurt again. That's why I obsess over everything and never socialize with people and make friends. I'm terrified of being let down.
I just had to get all of this out in the open. I'm tired of hiding my feelings. And I want to know that I'm not alone.
What started the fight was that I told my parents that I was going to call the post office and see if we could just pick the package up (the tracking information said that it was at our local post office). My parents didn't want me to (I don't remember why), which resulted in my dad suspending my phone and my mom locking herself in her room. (He's since reinstalled it)
My dad and I yelled at each other back and forth for a while until my mom came back downstairs. Once things calmed down a little I ended up letting a lot out. I told them that I'm actually terrified about my case (I'm suing the teacher that caused my PTSD in the first place, as are the families of several other children that she abused). I said that I'm scared that the attorneys on the opposing side will find a way to break me and scare me out of going any further, among other things.
I also said that ever since I was in that class, I've had a hard time trusting anyone. I always feel like I have to keep my guard up because if I don't I'll just get hurt again. That's why I obsess over everything and never socialize with people and make friends. I'm terrified of being let down.
I just had to get all of this out in the open. I'm tired of hiding my feelings. And I want to know that I'm not alone.
