I Keep Having Several Repetitive Dreams For The Past 5-6 Month...

[J_trustno1]

I keep seeing the same dreams over and over again to the point they are making me wake up in the middle of my sleep.

The first dream:
I keep repeating the same habit of leaving my exam study to the last minute due to tests and assignments that I am crying in my dreams that I will fail and not earn my bachelor's degree. (in reality: Yes, I used to be depressed during my study and I could never manage my time but I did excell in my assignments and exams. But I always feared failing).

My current real fear is not being able to do further study and not get anywhere in life.

Second dream:
I keep seeing the pedophile and him trying to touch me inappropriately. (Note : he was my abuser). I keep fighting him in my dreams by arguing and telling him to get away from me because I am not that 9 year old that he can molest me again.
(In reality : he has at several occasions in my adult life tried touching me and feeling my bra or my thighs but I have been fighting that m***** f***er off). I wish I could protect myself from him when I was 9 :cry: :(.

Third dream:
This dream involves my arguments with my mother for not protecting me from child Labour, emotional and verbal abuse given by her bastard brother,her bitch sisters and physical abuse she n my father brought into my life. I also keep hating her brother,sisters and mu asshole father in my dreams and in real life.

(In reality: This is exactly how I feel and I feel I was deceived by my mother and now I can never trust her again. The excuses she has given me about child labor are not sinking into my head because she keeps defending herself as being helpless and that is why she could not stand up to her bastard narcissistic brother. Hell, I was a 12yr old kid who used to not only stand up for myself but also for my mother and my brother when my mum's siblings or my father gave them hard time but then why the f*ck none of them did the same for me? Am I mentally sick for standing up to wrong shit???)

These are my major 3 concerns of my life and I keep seeing them in dreams to the point I am starting to lose my sleep again :(. Thanks for reading.

 

[WillyKat]

I'm no expert in dream interpretation. It's a very subjective thing. But I'll take a stab at it if that's ok with you.

I think the dream about the exams is a metaphor for the real tests you've faced in life. And hell, you've aced it! The second and third dreams are the reality of your tests, and you're passing those too. In other words, I think you're dreams are your subconscious self trying to say that all this is very frightening, it still hurts, but that you're still fighting and still here. But I see why they're waking you up. You don't feel safe yet.

So maybe the resolution is to acknowledge that you are passing in life, you've done very well, you've protected yourself. You're doing things right. Yet there are still safety concerns.

I'm coming up short on recommendations and I'm sorry for that. I think part of it is to acknowledge what a brave soul you are. Another part maybe is to look at your physical safety situation in real life and see if there's something you can do there. Are these people close (physically) to you? Would a safer neighborhood, farther away help? Just thinking out loud.

 

[Seagreen]

Its terrible that you are having these dreams. I would suspect that they will leave you once you work through the feelings that accompany them. Hope you are able to find your peace.