Sexual Assault I keep talking to my rapist

[User88]

I have a counsellor, but I only see her once a month.
Yeah, I should probably look into more options.
I think the problem is - when I listen to his excuses and he says he’s sorry, it’s easier for me than when I think about the fact that he may not actually be sorry and he did it on purpose.
When I stop talking to him- it hurts more than when I’m talking to him.

 

[Mee]

I have a counsellor, but I only see her once a month.
Yeah, I should probably look into more options....

Please consider talking to someone. If you are in the states the rainn.com live chat can be really useful though often the wait is long. It's worth it. A local rape advocacy might be able to arrange for more frequent therapy ( if affordability is a factor they might have resource advice too )

 

[User88]

Please consider talking to someone. If you are in the states the live chat can be really useful...

I had my counselling session today, I’ve decided to block the guy’s phone number and blocked him on WhatsApp so from now on, he can no longer contact me.
I’ve signed up for cognitive behavioural therapy sessions so I’m on a waiting list. I would strongly recommend anyone reading this to not continue talking or having any kind of contact with someone who has sexually assaulted them or raped them because it really messes with your head so much. They can manipulate your thoughts and make you think they are sorry and give all sorts of excuses.

 

[Mee]

I had my counselling session today, I’ve decided to block the guy’s phone number and blocked him on...

I am so glad you have done this.

I strongly agree. My ‘trigger incident person’ made me stay in touch with the rapist for a couple of months ; and I pretended all was fine. This was a period of time I very, very deeply regret because I did not act with authenticity or honesty to myself. A couple of people ( a doctor, a medical therapist my life partner and a couple of friends knew about the rape but I was all smiley faced and ‘it’s ok, I processed it’. In touch with them IS triggering. It gives more to work through.

This self care you have done is important.

 

[littleoc]

So happy to know you've blocked that person!

 

[EveHarrington]

You’re making great progress!

Congrats on moving forward!