Moonkindredlass
Bronze Member
When I was 21 I killed myself, I my heart stopped twice on the way to the hospital then again for a little over 4 minutes at the hospital. I did this after finding out that my mother, ok this is going to get confusing but stay with me. OK wait I'll just say what she did, my sister at this time thought that I was old enough to finally know, at the time I killed myself though I actually thought it was for other reasons, that one less person on Mother Earth would help save her, I know better now and why I did it.
The man who I thought was my father, I found out later he's not and that I'm half Sicilian, wanted my little brother and I for the summer, my mother said OK if he gave her 2000 dollars. This was after my big sister begged her daily for the two weeks before we left not to send me because he molested her, her and her boyfriend thought about running away with me but she was only 15,
I was 9 turning 10 in October. I spent all three months in a closet that was my bedroom and he and his wife molested me every night, I also started my cycle that summer and thought I was dying.
Wow I guess I needed to get that out, anyway that's not why I have PTSD but my point is that I've made it through a lot and I'm still here, I made it to my 40th birthday and I'm still fighting, I don't know what it is in me but I just keep trying to take that step out of the muck even when it's harder to do that than to stay.
The man who I thought was my father, I found out later he's not and that I'm half Sicilian, wanted my little brother and I for the summer, my mother said OK if he gave her 2000 dollars. This was after my big sister begged her daily for the two weeks before we left not to send me because he molested her, her and her boyfriend thought about running away with me but she was only 15,
I was 9 turning 10 in October. I spent all three months in a closet that was my bedroom and he and his wife molested me every night, I also started my cycle that summer and thought I was dying.
Wow I guess I needed to get that out, anyway that's not why I have PTSD but my point is that I've made it through a lot and I'm still here, I made it to my 40th birthday and I'm still fighting, I don't know what it is in me but I just keep trying to take that step out of the muck even when it's harder to do that than to stay.
