I Remember!!

[Me Myself and I]

I remember myself being such an ambitious girl!! I remeber myself being so joyful and hyper all the time. I used to love going out with friends, going to work, studying, my days were busy I used to dance and go to the gym!!

I remember enjoying food and laughing all the time! Being there for who needed me and always achieving whatever goal I had in mind!!

Now all I turned into is an anxious, stressed, allert, doubtful and paranoid girl!

I no longer know what I want, nor what I want to do or be!! I no longer have plans nor find it easy to enjoy anything!!

I miss my old life, I miss who I used to be!!

Having PTSD was such a turning point in my life! It's literary taking over my life!!

I'm so scared! I really am!!

 

[Lady Vet]

Having PTSD was such a turning point in my life! It's literary taking over my life!!

Nabii...PTSD is very powerful, indeed. But it doesn't have to take over your life... You can take your life back. It's not easy, and it may not happen quickly, but PTSD doesn't have to take over your life.

Have you read the information in the Trauma Diaries Forum?

Here's the link (just in case):
[DLMURL]https://www.ptsdforum.org/c/forums/trauma-diaries.10/[/DLMURL]

There is wonderful information here about Exposure Therapy that can help you reclaim your life.

 

[Lady Vet]

I remember enjoying food and laughing all the time! Now all I turned into is an anxious, stressed, allert, doubtful and paranoid girl!

Nabii...The Exposure Therapy can help you to bridge the gap between who you used to be, and the you the PTSD has turned you into. :)

 

[Me Myself and I]

Thank you very much Lady! :)

 

[DharmaGirl]

I felt like you did except I always had PTSD, I think. I never knew who I was. Now, though, I have been in therapy and on this forum for over a year, and I am realizing who I am. It is a slow process for me, and a lot of work, but today I am so much further along the path to healing that I am really happy! You can bridge the gap if you keep working! Hugs.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

You will learn how to better manage your symptoms and have a better life than the one you now have. Just keep on working on yourself to get better. I was diagnosed in 1985 and I am doing so much better than I was. I know it took a long time, but I did not get this way overnight and I will not heal overnight either.

My life is complicated with other issues and it is causing me to have anxiety. I am dealing with it the best I can. I am wishing you the best.

 

[TLight]

I understand. I feel the same way you do.

The tendency is to blame ourselves and be inpatient with healing. This doesn't help in any way shape or form.

Acceptance of our limitations on any given day is the key to dealing with symptoms. Don't force beyond your capacity or you'll only experience set backs and the vicious cycle begins again.

I've learned to be aware of when I'm having symptoms, adjust my life to them accordingly while avoiding complete isolation, although some days I just have to isolate. I accept that. Makes things tolerable for me and the next day will hopefully get better.

Hang tight, take meds if needed, and try to accept yourself. Without that there's absolutely no healing that can occur.