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I never would have posted some things I have recently with how it was before.

Just a fact. It has done me good.

Wagon
 
I'm attempting to use my Post 9/11 G.I. Bill to go back to school and I signed up for the summer quarter which is only five weeks long. I am taking a math class that normally is taken over the course of an entire semester, but it's crammed into five weeks I stead. I have a math test every class night. I eat, sleep, and breathe math right now so I'm a bit more on edge than usual. That's what triggered my little bitch fit about missing the supporters and what not. As you can see I didn't delete my forum app at all I was just rattling my own cage a bit. I apologize if I stirred up old shit or offended anyone. Ill try and actually contribute something useful to the forum when I finish this damn math class. After that the school is doing away with the quarter system and switching to the semester system so if I can just last a couple more weeks I'll be relatively back to normal. Anyway, talk to you all later.

P.s. when I'm actually working on math problems my anxiety and anger dramatically lower. It's the time in between that I get ultra stressed. Weird.
 
Hey mate that's understood. I admire you for taking it on. I had to do maths (equally crammed) as part of my trade upgrade (Royal Signals).
I F**cking hated it. Especially when I almost began to see the 'beauty in numbers', urghh!
So, more power to your elbow, nail it and see you on the other side!
 
I can hear you on that one Chemlight. I did the summer school thing to get out of University early. 6 classes in ten weeks. I lost my shit after that.... well actually during as some grades show. I would have been better off playing in traffic the whole summer.

But it sounds like you have grip. And as Ned said, nail it. I had no idea what the hell was wrong with me then, you got a leg up on this one.

Wagon
 
I am one of the bitchiest here. Sorry for going off at anyone. I suppose it comes with the territory.

What I want to know is how all you guys manage to work, let alone go to school. Then again if you VA does not look after you, you have to do something to survive.
I tried some casual volunteer work, but as soon as someone got in my face it was over. So for now I am resigned to being the house bitch. I don't mind it actually, I have peace during the day, just not in my head, especially as there is a major military exercise and we have both Aussie and US Hornets buzzing the town every day.

Chemlight, I love maths. I was is communications too, started doing long division on a scrap bit of paper in the field to work out antenna lengths for HF, then in the end we had to do complex calculations for satellite and radio relay shots over big distances. Now I have probs concentrating and have issues just doing a basic Suduko. lol
 
One day you & me are going to have a Royal Signals revision session. In your back yard, with pineapples. Lambda 'n all that. WRT work, Jimmy I am just oh so f**king lucky that I am gifted at what I do. And you are right, no safety net so I jumped. Every week is on the edge though. And I tell you what, I was teetering until I found this site and the help it offered.
So there.
 
I know a lot of Veterans who only do volunteer work now, somewhere with no time restrictions and their work is valued. Working from home is the other option. The hardest part though is wanting to isolate. If you hold down a high pressure job, you just can't up and leave.

I am fortunate to have had my claims helped through by a veteran who knew his shit. It still took a while and the first one was refused. So now, I don't have to work and at present I am glad about it.

Jimmy
 
I work in a high pressure job (ambulance service) and want to beat the living daylights out of all the time wasters and cry babys - I think that was a good 2nd post on the forum...
 
I work in a high pressure job (ambulance service) and want to beat the living daylights out of all the time wasters and cry babys - I think that was a good 2nd post on the forum...

Mate, thats a problem a lot of us veterans have. We have all served, we all have a sense of urgency, and we were all trained to adhere to time lines or it could cost lives. We were then trained to not whine about trivial things and to ignore emotions and injuries otherwise you were considered weak. If your friend fell in battle, you had to suck it up.

Then they put you back in society and expect you to be normal.

You wait in line at an appointment and wait for hours listening to people whining about trivial matters.

So I can understand your frustrations and your anger at time wasters and cry babies.
 
I tried to become a Fire Fighter when I healed up. I worked as an emt2 paramedic and as a vol. fire fighter. I even attended college for fire science. took the basics and even sprinkler hydro design,instlation and regulation. That class was all math and it SUCKED!
I had to stop. After the second year I just snapped. A guy who was known AIDS carrier tried to stab me with a dirty needle. I beat the S$%t out of him and had to quit. It was pretty hard pulling babies from car wrecks anyway. That stuff sticks just as much as combat. Any one who does it for a living for more than a few years has seen a lot. I have no clue how you cope. I drank a lot.
 
They reckon Air Traffic Controllers are one of the most highly stressed jobs you can have on the civilian side.

A mate of mine went from black hair to snow white in 4 months then all is hair fell out. They blamed it on stress.
They also said you have to have a sick and twisted sense of humor.

Have you noticed that in the military??
 
We found a guy half burned in a truck, his lower region was intact but the uppor torso was crisped to the bones. We posed him and took a few photos of him playing with himself. I know. Sick but at the time it was very funny and I think it helped us to deal with the stress. We had to check every tank,apc and truck to make sure the occupants were dead. We found a few that were fakeing it and they got a grenade. End of that problem child. But it was gruesome to have to do. Plus, we had all the uranium spoor from the tank shells and we never were protected. I asked after the 3rd tank and was told "its safe now shut your suck and do your job" Tipical.
 
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