If I Could I Would..

[zaniara]

Relax and know that it's okay, that I can fall apart and that there is someone here who would help me, do my dishes, make food, whatever needs to be done. That I could be weak for real, because someone would cover my back.

But no, there is noone like that in my life. There never ever have been one. So no choice but to stay strong, noone would keep my life from crashing if I didn't cope. Not even a couple of days.

Am so very tired.

 

[zaniara]

Be safe for as long as I live, always have a roof over my head, always be able to afford food, be free from...

((((C j))))

 

[Deleted member 29920]

@zaniara :hug::hug::hug:

 

[LuckiLee]

*move to the country
*take my Love's nightmares away and replace with them with happy dreams where he wakes up smiling or laughing!!
*buy a new stove and refrigerator
*volunteer my time more
*take up the guitar
*go back to school

 

[Teasel]

Move to a new home and get the best help I could.

 

[Anrish]

Get a house. Have two dogs...and dance.

 

[VioletButterfly]

To get a good job with nice people, to secure new housing, and to build a family of choice around me.

 

[expectingbetter]

Free myself of feeling of guilt and fear

 

[Heather]

Speed up time
Have no days where I let fear dictate what I do or more importantly what I don't

 

[Heather]

Buy a house in the country where the nearest neighbor is at least 3 miles away

No make that 5 miles in each direction

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I would jump ahead to a year from now to avoid the messy work of reclaiming my life and starting over again.

 

[Teasel]

Travel