Hey aut55-
that's super interesting. I'm sure many of us understand the weird reactions people have. My mom is like you. She would see people in daily life and it's like they had a flashing color around them or something where she just knew they were in trouble. She never knew what to do with it because how do you walk up to someone and say, Hi, I believe about 85% you are going to die I think you should go to the hospital. But no embellishment, the next day I would go to school and when we all ask where is Matt today? The teacher would say his Dad died of a heart attack last night. I'd go home and my mom would be so quiet. I hope you find some way to use this, because I look at these things as gifts. I'm trying to find my way as well. Small steps. When I started this thread, I was in such a mental hole, just starting therapy and opening up the huge gorilla sized can of worms of awful things/experiences I had shoved so low in my body and mind. But now, I've not only gotten better, done the work, made some peace, even found a person besides my therapist to help me specifically with my issue with drawing in negative paranormal through my negative feelings and she did amazing work. She said the craziest stuff, too. And to those critics out there, she completely confirmed everything.
I hope your gifts don't give you as much stress as much as mine did when I started this thread. And darn it, I will have to look it up again, but someone months ago suggested sage and closing your eyes and concentrating that you have a bright light around yourself and going through yourself to ward off negative energy and things. I will find it, but you were SO right!! I do it once a week now and the woman I go to about this stuff suggested the exact same thing.