I'm having a BAD Month!! It's so hard to let go of my combat PTSD friend of one year. He dumped me as a friend as soon as he got his 100% disability back pay. Oh he's a christian too and now says that we are unequally yoked.
OK but I helped him (like a fool) with gas, food, clothes for his kids, I gave him furniture etc that I could have sold. I was just there when he was really low, wouldn't brush his teeth and talked crazy. He always said that he didn't want a relationship, than at other times he would say he was going to take me on his dream vacation and that I was beautiful etc.
I'm not innocence, I'm bi-polar and have exploded on him more than once. I told him that I think he's a rude and ungrateful person. He gets angry and cuts me off..I missed the good side of him. We were best friends and use to eat, cook, share and laugh together a lot..Now he tells me to stop texting him, I never loved you and move on.
He did give me $500 when I told him that I needed help one day, and gave me back, used cologne, candles and a tablet I gave him in a box the same day and asked me to move on..During another conversation he apologized and told me that I had made him mad and he had planning to do other things for me...Now today he's back to leave me alone...AWWW!!! UGH!! Jekyll and Hyde!
I know I have to move on because this hurts but I fell in love with the kind man. He's said that he's never loved me and only likes me as a friend...Ouch! We have been intimate many times before but as he became more religious he said it wasn't right. OK, but he use to stay in my house and sleep in my bed next too me, go with me to get massages and tell me everything good/bad in his life. I'm so confused.
I have read other post and I know this is typical PTSD behavior but when you are experiencing it, it's so painful to be shut off. Lastly, he said he got angry with me because I was asked to go on 2 dates with friends only and wouldn't go on the second one because I just don't like the person. Suddenly, he was angry at me for treating the second friend like rudely and said that I was spending too much time with him and blocking future good men?
Now he says he is dating somebody who is the one, who loves church like him?? Then he says he doesn't want a relationship right now and since I want more than friendship, he can't be my friend....I can't take anymore but I miss him terribly I'm going to turn off my phone and take a Xanax now..
OK but I helped him (like a fool) with gas, food, clothes for his kids, I gave him furniture etc that I could have sold. I was just there when he was really low, wouldn't brush his teeth and talked crazy. He always said that he didn't want a relationship, than at other times he would say he was going to take me on his dream vacation and that I was beautiful etc.
I'm not innocence, I'm bi-polar and have exploded on him more than once. I told him that I think he's a rude and ungrateful person. He gets angry and cuts me off..I missed the good side of him. We were best friends and use to eat, cook, share and laugh together a lot..Now he tells me to stop texting him, I never loved you and move on.
He did give me $500 when I told him that I needed help one day, and gave me back, used cologne, candles and a tablet I gave him in a box the same day and asked me to move on..During another conversation he apologized and told me that I had made him mad and he had planning to do other things for me...Now today he's back to leave me alone...AWWW!!! UGH!! Jekyll and Hyde!
I know I have to move on because this hurts but I fell in love with the kind man. He's said that he's never loved me and only likes me as a friend...Ouch! We have been intimate many times before but as he became more religious he said it wasn't right. OK, but he use to stay in my house and sleep in my bed next too me, go with me to get massages and tell me everything good/bad in his life. I'm so confused.
I have read other post and I know this is typical PTSD behavior but when you are experiencing it, it's so painful to be shut off. Lastly, he said he got angry with me because I was asked to go on 2 dates with friends only and wouldn't go on the second one because I just don't like the person. Suddenly, he was angry at me for treating the second friend like rudely and said that I was spending too much time with him and blocking future good men?
Now he says he is dating somebody who is the one, who loves church like him?? Then he says he doesn't want a relationship right now and since I want more than friendship, he can't be my friend....I can't take anymore but I miss him terribly I'm going to turn off my phone and take a Xanax now..
