SophiaWisdom
Gold Member
Thank you for this thread it's so enlightening and helpful to me from a personal perspective too!
For years I never admitted my mother molested me b/c I wasn't sure she had! I knew she performed covert incest, but I grew up in a culture that normalizes incredibly incestuous things (it's disgusting, honestly, and incredibly damaging and toxic but billions of people are okay with it so I can't change the tide in one night or even a lifetime).
But then when I turned 35 I became a Christian and suddenly I was given the freedom and power to speak honestly about what happened to me. I realized I was abused sexually and I started telling people! I joined these church healing classes and groups and I just told everybody when it was appropriate.
Six months later something huge triggered me and I got my CPTSD. I'm just now starting to come out of the worst of it and my recovery is going well, but very very difficult and painful. It is better than being in denial, however.
Literally being able to tell people was my key. I can't credit anything but the Holy Spirit in my case specifically, because literally nothing else happened in my life to motivate me to suddenly not only see what it was but speak out about it so publicly with near strangers.
I'm just thankful I see the truth and was given a fiery spirit and tongue to speak this truth and defend it against naysayers. (My family and community has shunned me for daring to speak like this - it's just so taboo! So sad, isn't it?)
Lots of support to you.
This sharing struck me so much because it is exactly wha thappened to me and now sheds light on why I was so functioning (even high-achieving) for three decades of my life and then suddenly was not even functional.
For years I never admitted my mother molested me b/c I wasn't sure she had! I knew she performed covert incest, but I grew up in a culture that normalizes incredibly incestuous things (it's disgusting, honestly, and incredibly damaging and toxic but billions of people are okay with it so I can't change the tide in one night or even a lifetime).
But then when I turned 35 I became a Christian and suddenly I was given the freedom and power to speak honestly about what happened to me. I realized I was abused sexually and I started telling people! I joined these church healing classes and groups and I just told everybody when it was appropriate.
Six months later something huge triggered me and I got my CPTSD. I'm just now starting to come out of the worst of it and my recovery is going well, but very very difficult and painful. It is better than being in denial, however.
Literally being able to tell people was my key. I can't credit anything but the Holy Spirit in my case specifically, because literally nothing else happened in my life to motivate me to suddenly not only see what it was but speak out about it so publicly with near strangers.
I'm just thankful I see the truth and was given a fiery spirit and tongue to speak this truth and defend it against naysayers. (My family and community has shunned me for daring to speak like this - it's just so taboo! So sad, isn't it?)
Lots of support to you.
