I'm Just So Tired...

[SeekingAfrica]

There have been so many days in the last weeks when I can't get out of bed or I can't do anything. And I do my best and try to pull through in any way I know, and I try and get better and then again and again. Therapy is rough lately and I wonder if I really tell all that happened if it will ever stop haunting me. I'm tired of trying to talk and just shaking, frozen in the moment.
I'm tired.
Bad days, efforts, good days, bad days, efforts. I feel like I'm exercising, except I get all bruised emotionally. I really wish I can be someone else for few days but I know the more I run the worse it will get.I just wish I new how to get out of this state.

 

[joe222]

Therapy is rough lately and I wonder if I really tell all that happened if it will ever stop haunting me.

You really need to say it all. It may not be the right time for you though? Sometimes we can't say it, or do what we need to because our mind won't actually let us because we aren't ready. When you say it though, you will feel better. Props to you for keeping to try, and please don't give up. Part of you is still fighting and that part will win, as long as you stay strong. Take care!

 

[intheprocess]

I agree. When you are ready and tell all a great weight will be lifted. Sometimes I tell something, without emotion, I just decide to say it and it's a relief when I do. But sometimes, I'm not there yet and it takes awhile. Sorry for rambling, just feel bad that you are so down.