J_trustno1
Diamond Member
It's been since last two month when things started going down for me for the following reasons:
1. Study pressure
2. Being manipulated by other peers to do all the group tasks
3. A guy in relationship who was only in for his own benefits. He sexually assaulted me three times and it was the third time I realized that he actually violated my rights when I discussed this with other friends, my counselor and my doctor. I had to get morning after pill twice in two weeks. I've had my period 3 times in last 3 weeks because of this. This guy always berated me, made my accomplishments less, yelled at me, had anger issues and I feared him.
He manipulated and pressured me into doing his assignments and CV. However, when he failed the paper, the blame was on me. He came to my house (my fault here for letting him in) and sexually assaulted me as a revenge for failing the paper. As a result I reported him this time and he has been trespassed by the police.
I have been emotionally going downhill and don't see myself seeing any good future and feel I can't survive this life. I'm sick of being used by people and being a people pleaser. One of my so called friend ditched me because I chose a wrong guy and was mad at me for not listening to her. Another so called friend was in my life just because he need to pass this course we were in as a group where I had to do 75% of the assignment and after the assignment was over, and when I needed him to be there for me at my down time, I am simply called "Annoying".
I'm really sick of this. I really need to get out of this hell. Please help :( :( :(. I've been stuck in my room for the last 5 days since that assault happened. My eating and sleeping has been affected as a result of all this. I haven't been exercising or doing things that I normally do. I am seeing my counselor once a week but I think I need a lot more counseling. But I need to work on this people pleasing and getting manipulated by other people now.
1. Study pressure
2. Being manipulated by other peers to do all the group tasks
3. A guy in relationship who was only in for his own benefits. He sexually assaulted me three times and it was the third time I realized that he actually violated my rights when I discussed this with other friends, my counselor and my doctor. I had to get morning after pill twice in two weeks. I've had my period 3 times in last 3 weeks because of this. This guy always berated me, made my accomplishments less, yelled at me, had anger issues and I feared him.
He manipulated and pressured me into doing his assignments and CV. However, when he failed the paper, the blame was on me. He came to my house (my fault here for letting him in) and sexually assaulted me as a revenge for failing the paper. As a result I reported him this time and he has been trespassed by the police.
I have been emotionally going downhill and don't see myself seeing any good future and feel I can't survive this life. I'm sick of being used by people and being a people pleaser. One of my so called friend ditched me because I chose a wrong guy and was mad at me for not listening to her. Another so called friend was in my life just because he need to pass this course we were in as a group where I had to do 75% of the assignment and after the assignment was over, and when I needed him to be there for me at my down time, I am simply called "Annoying".
I'm really sick of this. I really need to get out of this hell. Please help :( :( :(. I've been stuck in my room for the last 5 days since that assault happened. My eating and sleeping has been affected as a result of all this. I haven't been exercising or doing things that I normally do. I am seeing my counselor once a week but I think I need a lot more counseling. But I need to work on this people pleasing and getting manipulated by other people now.
