I'm Tired - Why Isn't Suicide A Solution?

[Tinyflame]

That dog might need YOU.

Just a thought..

 

[novemberDark]

What do you focus on?

Something to perceive Keifer, something that looks back at you.

I really hope that you can be on here for some advice, if you do go ahead with the hybrid.

My buddies dog's been the world to him in the darkest times and he's now 16 years old ( fit but deaf, on special food etc).

I'm scared shitless what will happen when his dog passes on.

 

[keifer]

Keifer was my first ESA before I ever knew about such things. He was there for me many dark times in those twelve years. I've never connected with anyone like him.

The puppy I'm looking is18 hours away. I have a weekend coming up which would fit the trip. My sister wants me to wait a couple weeks before deciding. My guide called me today and was delighted I started to consider this but not happy I was hungover, honesty gets me.

@WendyA I'm doing ok. Honestly, I don't know. I quit therapy when my base doc said I'm not improving fast enough and I'm considered unstable. I know I need to do something different with my life so retire I will.

After my guide called today, I wondered if it was a mistake to quit therapy as I do have the desire to just end this pain. Yep, I guess I'm unstable but I haven't had any bad flashbacks for a while, just one hyper episode during a two hour meeting with a lot of people.

 

[novemberDark]

So Keifer was a trained dog (ESA) ?.

You know puppies are a handful man.!

My buddy's dog is not a trained one, but I know he was a destructive puppy.

Seen any other ones? .

 

[keifer]

Not trained, just a very intelligent wolf pup.

I haven't seen any other listing nearer for one.

 

[novemberDark]

Do you feel up for that ?.

I know every dog derives from the wolf. Doesn't that mean the cub could be more than a handful? .

Don't get me wrong I still think you should go for it. Would bring good focus.

 

[keifer]

Decided to wait for a puppy until I'm retired or least on terminal leave. My work is fairly demanding.

 

[keifer]

I keep finding this post when I look for answers. The darkness doesn't stop, they won't leave me alone. There is no cure. I can't go back.

 

[novemberDark]

Hi Keifer

 

[novemberDark]

Did you end up getting another dog?

 

[Echo]

@keifer - what happened to the photo of Keifer? I so enjoyed looking at him. Have you taken it down?

If it is not the right time for you to have another dog/wolf, is there any way for you to get involved with rescue dogs or something like that in your spare time? I know a few people who do this with cats and even ferrets (!). They go to the sanctuaries and help out with walking and training. I just wonder if it would lift you a bit to have that focus. Just a thought. They always need volunteers.

Hope to see Keifer back again soon.

 

[novemberDark]

Ps just keep moving backwards is no use