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Increased depression and trauma work. Does this create the "Perfect Storm?"


I don't really understand what is going on. I can have a "good" day which for (us)(parts) means little to no crying, a tiny bit less affected by our environment, a little more patience and less desire to want to go to bed.
But, don't assume every day works the same. The next day can be totally opposite. Tears roll down our face as we shower; sad that we woke up, sad that we have to go to work all day and have no one to talk to - for 8 hours 5 days a week. I don't think I will ever work with a large group of people, most days it's easier to just keep to ourselves.
What I'm trying to say is: I am silently deeply depressed, triggered by everything and everyone. It takes a long time to get to sleep and we have been waking up at 330am most mornings and have trouble getting back to sleep.
Sending hugs. The emotional roller coaster seems to be common part of pstd. Have you a change to talk to a counselor or trusted person about this?
Trauma work is going to increase any symptoms you’re already having, and often spikes “new” ones, as well.

Are you working with someone, & if so, do they know how much your depression is flooding your life?