not writing anything new or interesting here, but people will always mirror us aspects (I am oversimplifying here, so please toss aside if it’s BS! I do understand ) that we refuse (Or we Do see but still painful to be with) to acknowledge in ourselves, people being destructive and living in denial despite others being hurt and creating damage, there is this reciprocity, reminding me of my own journey while also being reminded of someone (Or many) that caused me harm in various ways and now seeing those traits also in other individuals, it’s a constant ride on rejecting those behaviors (Due to good reasons), and also diving into that enmeshment of „How much has this to Do with myself?“ what is being bought to the surface?one point, in large part due to my lack of patience when dealing with the undisciplined behaviors of others. Some things are very black an white with me. For instance, while I can be extremely empathetic when a person is looking for help with their addictions, someone out there unaware of how his problems are affecting
Sorry for the unclear Blahness.. (Not a native English speaker, and also just lack of Focus) But I have a massive Issue when it comes to power dynamics.. compassion plays a role there as well.. the moment I disregard wounded selfparts the harder it gets..
I need a quick fix..I‘m tired.
@ruborcoraxxx having my head/heart wars with this condition as well. In a situation where I perceived my action / communication as weak, I went into a trigger mode that was extremely hard to be with.. as usual always hard to put it into words..as far as they might straight attack what they perceive as weak
This is extremely hard, sorry you had to endure so much pain RussellSue!is bad enough to be debilitating, in some scenarios. I could not work in the medical field because of it -- so, obviously, there are major advantages to people not being this sensitive to the pain of others. Emergency rooms almost always require sedation for me.