DID Integration Progress

[SuKi]

Hi

I joined a while back but the front team was still quite seperate However we have now achieved successful integration between the 3 who most wanted to be the host and/or dealing with daily life/aiding system recovery. We are now one… I feel more complete and we had decided our new nickname would be ‘SuKi’ before the joining. Most people have a shortened version of their legal names. (Including middle names etc).
This integration seems to have helped the system stabilise and our ‘insiders’ seem much happier and much less disruptive. we have been able to deal with many issues using journaling and writing our autobiography so others got chance to write events as they remembered them. photographs, art murals and video games have helped our younger insiders play through some stuff too.
As Host and person once again in control of my own body and own life it has felt liberating. There are still a few who have not yet been ready to integrate but my experience seems to have been triggered by the onset of peri-menopause and I am now in the latter stages and soon hope to reached 1 year to be officially in menopause. The hormonal fluctuations that caused triggering emotions for different parts seem to be calming down considerably now.
I am hoping Integration will be complete on completion of the menopause ..so still have a bit more work to do but are on the ‘final stretch’ at long last!!!

 

[Deleted member 53623]

Hi, Big congrats on getting together with three of the insiders.!

I can very much relate to feeling more complete and whole when together and less separate. ( For me/ us that goes back and forth),
I also feel more real , and I have been told that my alters want to be one with me.

Hope things will go smoothly for you. !

 

[SusanPLC]

Hi, Big congrats on getting together with three of the insiders.!

I can very much relate to feeling more complete and whole when together and less separate. ( For me/ us that goes back and forth),
I also feel more real , and I have been told that my alters want to be one with me.

Hope things will go smoothly for you. !

Thankyou! … yes some don’t feel ready, mainly the younger ones who have always lived inside for many years now. I’m in my 50’s now. We usually only had one main front in the past who wasn’t aware of our insiders…but the peri-menopause has been a rough ride for us and having just one was too exhausting but have too many seperate ones coming out randomly was also very tiring. (I have ME and arthritis to cope with too)

Thankfully we seem to be getting closer to the other end of the tunnel! and things starting to settle down again. I’ve had a bad flare with severely swollen and painful joints. (Triggered by a multiple insect bites causing an allergic reaction) That triggers ME crash which triggers dissociation and leaves me with severe brain fog so add in effects of peri and iI barely knew who I was or what day it was most days!

We 3 decided to try to see if it gave more strength and energy if we attempted to integrate as one…. It has helped . I’ll give it more time until we’’ve been stable for longer then see if anyone else wants to integrate with us. Hopefully it will just kind of happen naturally as we reach the menopause..

Most of our trauma is medical or bullying from kids/people outside of the family.