Sufferer I hope I can make progress, not perfect

[Emrlia]

Hi, in 2024 I lost a family member, everything in my my late parent's house was taken by my relatives, I had a major health problem and had to lie down for a few month, and I got fired iligally because of it, I had to move out of the city I love because of my partner, and come back to my hometown where I got my CPTSD, but I came back only expect it to be a short stay so I can wait for my partner to settle down and move in with him, but he broke up with me. After all these I just realized I have CPTSD. Now I'm alone and stuck with my toxic parent again. I shake and cry if I see her or she talks to me. The therapist I saw when I was young was contemptuous when I tell her my feeling. So now I'm just staying here. Reading Complex PTSD. Almost finished. Starting from bibliotherapy now. I realized I'm at the end of the continuum for all 4F types. I cry a lot for every sentence I read on that book. I hope I can ventilate safely here.

 

[Riley Jones]

Hi, in 2024 I lost a family member, everything in my my late parent's house was taken by my relatives, I had a major health problem and had to lie down for a few month, and I got fired iligally because of it, I had to move out of the city I love because of my partner, and come back to my hometown where I got my CPTSD, but I came back only expect it to be a short stay so I can wait for my partner to settle down and move in with him, but he broke up with me. After all these I just realized I have CPTSD. Now I'm alone and stuck with my toxic parent again. I shake and cry if I see her or she talks to me. The therapist I saw when I was young was contemptuous when I tell her my feeling. So now I'm just staying here. Reading Complex PTSD. Almost finished. Starting from bibliotherapy now. I realized I'm at the end of the continuum for all 4F types. I cry a lot for every sentence I read on that book. I hope I can ventilate safely here.

Welcome to the myptsd.com community. I'm truly sorry to hear about everything you've been through. It sounds incredibly overwhelming, and it's understandable that you're feeling this way. It's important to know that you're not alone, and this community can be a place where you can connect with others who have faced similar experiences and understand the complexities of CPTSD.

Here, you can share your experiences and feelings with others who genuinely get it. It's a space where you can express what you're going through without judgment. Many people have found comfort in knowing that they're not alone and have received support from others who are in similar situations.

While this community can be a wonderful source of mutual support, I also encourage you to seek professional help if you're able. A compassionate and understanding therapist can be an invaluable part of your healing journey. Remember, you deserve to find peace and healing.

On myptsd.com, you'll find specific forums dedicated to a range of topics related to PTSD and CPTSD, making it easier for you to find discussions and support around issues similar to your own. Please feel free to explore and join in on these conversations at your own pace.

Take things one day at a time, and know that there is hope and support out there for you. You're taking important steps towards healing by reaching out and seeking understanding. Wishing you strength and comfort.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Welcome to the site. I am so sorry for all the trauma you’ve endured and are still dealing with! You have found a safe place that I have been a member of for over 10 years. There is so much to learn from the articles and other people’s stories.
I hope you will be able to find a good therapist! I don’t know where I would be without that help and input from people who are trained to help me manage my emotions! It’s a lifelong commitment but you can feel better!
Blessings to you!
AKJ

 

[Emrlia]

Welcome to the site. I am so sorry for all the trauma you’ve endured and are still dealing with! You have found a safe place that I have been a member of for over 10 years. There is so much to learn from the articles and other people’s stories.
I hope you will be able to find a good therapist! I don’t know where I would be without that help and input from people who are trained to help me manage my emotions! It’s a lifelong commitment but you can feel better!
Blessings to you!
AKJ

Thank you for the warm words.

 

[parrotthepolly]

Welcome to the forum! Sorry to hear your old therapist wasn't helpful, it can take trial and error to find the right one.

 

[hypervigilant]

Welcome to the forum, you are safe here and among like minds. I am so sorry for all you are going through. Just keep moving forward and don't be afraid to ask advice. We are all in differing stages.

 

[Emrlia]

Thank you. I'm stucked in so many things everywhere in my life. Now I don't know why my ex is so determined to leave me, I love him and when he said we need I break I flashed back and he was shocked and I think I broke his heart. I explained later that have CPTSD and that was a flashback but he said I don't have trauma, I just need improvements. I feel he never understood me. Never try to feel what I feel. But I know I will miss him and might go back to him and beg him again and again with no self-esteem. But I hope I know I deserve something better. It's just he broke up with me at the worst time.

Welcome to the forum, you are safe here and among like minds. I am so sorry for all you are going through. Just keep moving forward and don't be afraid to ask advice. We are all in differing stages.

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum:)

 

[Emrlia]

Welcome to the forum! Sorry to hear your old therapist wasn't helpful, it can take trial and error to find the right one.

Yes, I will take baby steps, probably two steps forward one step back sometimes. Thank you!

Welcome to the forum:)

:)