Interesting Text Exchange

[desiderata310]

Ok.. so kind of feel abandoned.

I know I pissed my therapist off.
*shrug*

I've not been sleeping and he wanted me to go back to the Dr I had seen a couple of weeks prior to promise that I would get the medication refilled again. The Dr had only filled it with the understanding that I would be going to see a Pysch dr to get on medication. That ran out. I told my therapist. He said he would talk to him but he didn't. He wanted me to just go to this Dr that I had pretty much made a fool my myself in front of because I was in a bad way and tell him, 'oh he didn't want me to go to the Psychiatrist after all just give me a refill.' Only he didn't communicate that. So the pills ran out. The sleeping got worse. and I came back in in a bad way. He got pissed that I hadn't gone back to the doctor. During the session that day he said he would call him. And to my knowledge he never did.

Today I got a text that said that for the first time
first time he had been mad. But he wasn't anymore.
I said , "yeah, well, I still haven't gone back to see him so I guess you'll still be pissed."

So he wrote me back and said:
"You can choose to take care of yourself or not. Not fair though for me to keep picking up the pieces. This conversation isn't a text conversation I know, but I wanted to give you a heads up. I will see you once per week I want to surf w/ my son tomorrow am so I will see you Friday am @7:30. K?"

I wrote him:
"After dealing with him that Friday and having to beg him to give me that under the understanding that I was going to see a psych dr, I was waiting on you two to make contact.
Sorry that I was confused. I was still waiting on that. Our last exchange was that you had not made contact."

So first, I have to say that I don't expect him to pick up any pieces.
I dont expect anyone to pick up any pieces for any reason.

I don't think I will be going to therapy on Friday. I see no need in telling him that until Thursday evening however since he couldn't be bothered with telling me before today at 4:30.

I don't think I should be going to therapy anymore.

 

[Nighthawk]

That is not the way to tell that to a client and I would not go back to him. How rude. He said he would call the Dr. He let that slip. I wouldnt have gone unless that comunication had taken place either. Does he have a superior is there a way to get a referal to a differnt therapist.

 

[desiderata310]

Also I'm in the mood to napalm some more relationships.
I've already done that to my friend and my mom.
Why the hell not my therapist too.

 

[Nighthawk]

How long have you been seeing him for

 

[desiderata310]

No. Independent practice.
I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that he's doing the "tough love"
My guess is that I've been too difficult a client and I've not made the progress he expected me to make.
I guess not going back to the doctor for sleeping pills was just kind of his last straw.
I've made it this far in life without help.
I don't f*cking care anymore. I should have never trusted him in the first place.

 

[desiderata310]

@Nighthawk a little over a year

 

[Nighthawk]

I'd text him and let him know how unprofetional his prior communication was and to cancel your future appointments. What Id like to know is how the hell is he picking up the pieces.

 

[desiderata310]

Actually, I'm still stinging from "I'm going surfing"
How about, "I think you will be ok going back down to once a week. Let's try that after tomorrow"
Or ANYTHING other than " I want to go surfing with my son"; "I will see you once a week"
*hangs head*

I shouldn't have put any trust in him. This is typical. I shouldn't have trusted anyone.

 

[desiderata310]

@Nighthawk I suppose because I've come into my session and been in a really bad place.
I don't know.

 

[Nighthawk]

Welll unfortunatly there are good ones and bad ones. I am not sure if him saying that was purley to evoke a response. Whatever it was it was wrong

 

[joeylittle]

I've not been sleeping and he wanted me to go back to the Dr I had seen a couple of weeks prior to promise that I would get the medication refilled again.

Therapist wanted you to go back to the GP - what was the promise part about? To promise that this time, you needed another refill but you would really follow through about the psych?

The Dr had only filled it with the understanding that I would be going to see a Pysch dr to get on medication. That ran out. I told my therapist.

The GP only gave you the sleep meds with the assurance from you that you would go and see a psych to get more specialized help. But the meds from the GP prescription ran out before you ever saw a psych. If I'm right so far, what did you tell your therapist - just that the meds ran out, or that you hadn't managed to follow through about the psych?

He said he would talk to him but he didn't. He wanted me to just go to this Dr that I had pretty much made a fool my myself in front of because I was in a bad way and tell him, 'oh he didn't want me to go to the Psychiatrist after all just give me a refill.' Only he didn't communicate that.

This part is where I get confused. Therapist said he would call the GP for you? And who is the 'he' in "oh, he didn't want me to go to the psych. after all just give me a refill"?

Only reason I'm asking is that it would make things clearer in my head - I have a maybe theory about what might have been a big misunderstanding...

 

[Nighthawk]

I am personaly annoyed by what he said and he is not my T.