Sufferer Intro

[Sup]

Hi guys, my name is Matt I'm 38 years old. I'm an ex- copper from Nsw and NT police forces. I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2012. I've been close to suicide a few times. I'm married with 3 kids and I struggle every day. I find it very hard not to hate everyone...... as such my life has become very lonely. I'd like to make a few friends and enter into conversations about this prick of a thing..... I no longer take any pharmaceutical drugs. I got myself off all of them a do feel a little better.... any other emergency service people out there?

 

[Joylacker]

Hi guys, my name is Matt I'm 38 years old. I'm an ex- copper from Nsw and NT police forces. I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2...

Hi, Matt. My name is Joy. I'm not an emergency service person, but I wanted to say "Hi" since I'm new here also and I have PTSD. I don't take any pharmaceutical drugs either, haven't since 2004. There have been times especially in the last few months that I've seriously considered getting back on meds, but then I remember how they made me feel and the side effects... I rather deal with the chaos of my emotions and my life, as painful as it can be.
Oh, I also know what is like to want to end it all, I tried 3 times, the last time was in 2002, but that doesn't mean the desire has gone away, just that I promised myself I wouldn't try anymore. Lately, I've been breaking some other promises I made to myself in the past, and to be honest, that kind of scares me, but so far I don't have a suicide plan and I'm dealing with the thoughts. Also thinking of getting a dog soon, that may help?
Alright, I know I can be chatty since I have no one to talk to about this stuff. I hope you find some friends and support here.

 

[Friday]

Welcome aboard :)

Quite a few first responders around and about. I did disaster response after my time in service, so got to work with a lot of y'all. Damn good people, by and large.

 

[Matt Jackson]

Hi, Matt. My name is Joy. I'm not an emergency service person, but I wanted to say "Hi" since I'm new...

Joy, how are you? I got a dog abit over 12 months ago.... and I can tell you, the little fella taught me how to love again..... best thing ever.... in relation to the pharmaceuticals, don't do it! They only mask the trauma..... the drug they say is working is MDMA.... I know right??? I've been researching the heck out of it lately..... if you've got time type mdma ptsd into YouTube and have a look.... I've never been on a site like this before and although a little dark, but it's good to see there's a few of us around. Makes feel a little better about it in a weird way...

 

[Matt Jackson]

Welcome aboard :)

Quite a few first responders around and about. I did disaster response after my time...

Thanks for the welcome.

 

[Friday]

the drug they say is working is MDMA.... I know right??? I've been researching the heck out of it lately....

MDMA is exciting as blazes. We just got the go-ahead over here from the FDA for massive trials and it made me wish forum folks were locals so we could have a big celebratory extravaganza (of course, PTSD that would be interesting in and of itself :sneaky: ). Since it was used for decades therapeutically, and slightly longer recreationally, there are unlikely to be any surprises as far as health concerns; so it's almost purely judging it's effectiveness. And the initial results from trials outside this country? Make it the most exciting thing I've ever read in regards to treating PTSD. And I've read a lot over the past few years.

MDMA-Assisted Psychotherapy :D <<< Best source I've found, to date.

What I love most about it -outside of its success rate, which is jaw dropping- is that it isn't a maintenance drug, and it isn't a crutch. Both of which have their places, but neither work so hot with PTSD. Instead? It's a very short term solution focused tool to allow trauma therapy to happen. Which does work with PTSD. <grin> As I said, It's just exciting as blazes. I've lost too many people I love to this damn disorder.

 

[Matt Jackson]

I wonder if there is anyone on this site with stories of mdma treatment? How it went. What it was like. And how they've been since..... or maybe if it really does work, they no longer need sites like this...