Intrusive thoughts and apathy

[shiningdark]

Does anyone feel the same way? After months of intrusive thoughts about my girlfriend's past, they started to be less frequent but I started to develop a total apathy about everything, I can't do anything or find the motivation to do anything.
I feel stuck, the days go by without meaning and I feel almost no emotion.
I am now completely out of any social circle, I am locked in my house and I hardly see my family any more.
The intrusive thoughts are debilitating anyway because stories about other people trigger me (not like my girlfriend of course) and it only takes one sentence from a song or movie to make me avoid them completely.
Does anyone feel the same way? Anyone to whom months of intrusive thoughts have caused apathy and complete debilitation to do anything? (despite them being less painful?)
Thanks for reading, hope you have a good day.

 

[parrotthepolly]

I feel apathy most of the time but occasionally still get intrusive thoughts. Life is pretty much meaningless afterwards.

 

[Friday]

This doesn’t sound like PTSD. (Nor does your previous post).

The list of things is DOES sound like is too long for me to waste an hour typing out several hundred possibilities… as it would be useless to you.

Do either you, or your girlfriend, HAVE a PTSD diagnosis?

 

[Rose White]

@shiningdark what you are describing sounds like stuff I deal with sometimes. It has to do with you not being able to fully know something about someone you care about. There is a space between you two which, as a human, you long to close (normal). Something in you says that if you can just understand or know more about them or their history then you can control what happened somehow. It could be related to your own personal experiences when you were young—not feeling safe unless you were in control of the other (usually your caregivers). I hope therapy helps you. Ultimately you and I and everyone else cannot ever know or understand everything about our partners’ inner world, their past, and their future. Allowing that space to exist without our colonizing it is hard work but it’s the space where love and intimacy can grow.