Hello, I have been searching for some answers and was led here, I've looked through some of the forum posts on the topic; however, I think it's time to ask my own questions. I am new to this forum, so please forgive me if this thread is in the wrong location.
My question is could it be possible to have either entirely blocked out a memory, or slept through an incident of being molested as a child? Would you feel something strange, or sort of creeped out in your own skin, or could you still feel normal? Would you sort of know in your mind deep down, or could you have no inclination to it at all?
I'm 22 years old, and I am in my first committed, stable relationship. When things get physical with my partner though, I only experience pain. This pain is mainly on penitration, and never subsides, but only gets more intense. The pain is often unbearable, and I sometimes begin to cry and cannot continue.
I have brought this up to my doctor, and aside from a lack-luster suggestion for what it may be, I was told to get an ultrasound. The results for that, a Pap, and blood tests show that there is nothing physically wrong with me. And yet the pain purists.
The problem has cut into my relationship, and I often try to avoid physical encounters just to stave off the inevitable pain. And then I watched a documentary about a woman who was feeling the same way. In the documentary the woman said it boiled down the the fact that she was sexually abused as a child.
I've had the question linger in my mind before, but have always brushed it off, I assumed I would have some sort of feeling to let me know. After watching the documentary the question rose again.
When I was a child I developed insomnia very suddenly, and lived with it throughout my teen years. I was diagnosed depressive, and suffered from cutting and Trichotillomania. I remember being very unforgiving to myself, and uncaring about myself or my body.
My question is could it be possible to have either entirely blocked out a memory, or slept through an incident of being molested as a child? Would you feel something strange, or sort of creeped out in your own skin, or could you still feel normal? Would you sort of know in your mind deep down, or could you have no inclination to it at all?
I'm 22 years old, and I am in my first committed, stable relationship. When things get physical with my partner though, I only experience pain. This pain is mainly on penitration, and never subsides, but only gets more intense. The pain is often unbearable, and I sometimes begin to cry and cannot continue.
I have brought this up to my doctor, and aside from a lack-luster suggestion for what it may be, I was told to get an ultrasound. The results for that, a Pap, and blood tests show that there is nothing physically wrong with me. And yet the pain purists.
The problem has cut into my relationship, and I often try to avoid physical encounters just to stave off the inevitable pain. And then I watched a documentary about a woman who was feeling the same way. In the documentary the woman said it boiled down the the fact that she was sexually abused as a child.
I've had the question linger in my mind before, but have always brushed it off, I assumed I would have some sort of feeling to let me know. After watching the documentary the question rose again.
When I was a child I developed insomnia very suddenly, and lived with it throughout my teen years. I was diagnosed depressive, and suffered from cutting and Trichotillomania. I remember being very unforgiving to myself, and uncaring about myself or my body.
