Is This All Worth It????

[Snowflake]

Just had a difficult session with therapist -EMDR on an SA incident with parents. Not sure life is worth it. Feeling super alone with a whole bunch of mixed up feelings-want to runaway.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

It is so worth it. EMDR is hard as its moving memories. Be patient with it and with yourself and some planned self care would be a good idea as most feel "off" after. Rest, distract, ground and be nice to yourself! :hug:

 

[Snowflake]

Just tell me to breathe.....anyone please

 

[digger]

Breathe :hug:

 

[Cult]

What is outside your window right now?

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Breathe! Its ok! :hug:

 

[Lucycat]

Just had a difficult session with therapist

Is this your first session of EMDR? Did your T discuss ways to care for yourself between sessions? Did you have lots of preparation beforehand?

It is not unusual to feel worse after EMDR, but then you feel better later. It is worth it. It is certainly not easy, and for sexual abuse I am guessing that you are having a number of sessions.

Yes - keep breathing and do anything that makes you feel a little better - a relaxing bath, or listening to your favourite music or a walk in the fresh air. The session will have brought up memories that you would rather not think about. However the long term aim is that you will be able to choose whether to think about them or not. Choice instead of intrusive memories and flashbacks. The end result is worth the pain right now.

 

[Snowflake]

I am at work-a parking lot!!

Gosh I fricken hate myself!!!! I wish she wrapped her arms around me and held me! But she doesn't hug -errrrr.

Why??? Did I say things??? Errrrrrr

 

[Snowflake]

Is this your first session of EMDR? Did your T discuss ways to care for yourself between sessions? Did y...

Yes I have done emdr before-probably 20x. This was just about something so personal and frightening and details-I read it. (A bit easier than full emdr)

I am working, trying to keep my mind off of it-already left her a message. Just feel alone with after effects

 

[Lucycat]

I am at work

I always planned my sessions so that I did not have to work afterwards. I appreciate that is not always possible - but consider it for next time.

OMG - if my T had offered me a hug I would have run a mile - but I get what you are saying!!

 

[Snowflake]

I always planned my sessions so that I did not have to work afterwards. I appreciate that is not always...

She is my only support system in the real world , no cyber. I need her to believe me and understand. She says she does but I don't know how I can believe it. A hug from her-I long for a hug-a connection -otherwise I hide behind her big pillow.

 

[SoSadGuilty]

You're doing so great @Snowflake really amazing. You're sticking at this and working through it. You should be so proud.

Cyber :hug: although I know it not nearly as good as real thing.