whats up guys my name is jeff. i served over in iraq through 2005 & 2006.
i came home and in 6 months having been out couldnt find work so all the saved money i had was gone which started a downhill path the led me to drinkin heavily basically once i hit this spiral i was wrapped up in drinking all day every day until i passed out because i felt i had no future .it got to where my wife had toput a halt in the drinking because my only stopping mechanism was to just pass out whenever whereever. i backed off on the drinking trying to find work but upto this point the only work i could find was labor work i took it because we would have had no where to live. short;y after that i was introduced to smoking pot as a solution and it worked quite well at least if you didnt have to work . and i floated from construction job to retail cell phone sales and rock bottomed at dillards where i just gave up i would clock in and turn around to leave because i couldnt stand being in there i would come back to clock out and finish the day. that went on for a while until i got into a heated conversation with my boss and i told her ive done more for you and your business than anyone else here and i was finished i just couldnt deal with the stress of that kind of work /ambien has me a bit loopy\ more will come but im still having constant trouble with everyday life and the spits and arguments between my wife and i. i just needed to get onto a board with guys like you who have been there and lived/ing it now just to kno from the booze i went to pot which helped me more than anything else including the meds they give me. no all i do is isolate in my house wanting to go out but knowing as soon as i get there ill be in major trouble plus i now have the worst road rage and it scares my family mostly uncontrollable
i came home and in 6 months having been out couldnt find work so all the saved money i had was gone which started a downhill path the led me to drinkin heavily basically once i hit this spiral i was wrapped up in drinking all day every day until i passed out because i felt i had no future .it got to where my wife had toput a halt in the drinking because my only stopping mechanism was to just pass out whenever whereever. i backed off on the drinking trying to find work but upto this point the only work i could find was labor work i took it because we would have had no where to live. short;y after that i was introduced to smoking pot as a solution and it worked quite well at least if you didnt have to work . and i floated from construction job to retail cell phone sales and rock bottomed at dillards where i just gave up i would clock in and turn around to leave because i couldnt stand being in there i would come back to clock out and finish the day. that went on for a while until i got into a heated conversation with my boss and i told her ive done more for you and your business than anyone else here and i was finished i just couldnt deal with the stress of that kind of work /ambien has me a bit loopy\ more will come but im still having constant trouble with everyday life and the spits and arguments between my wife and i. i just needed to get onto a board with guys like you who have been there and lived/ing it now just to kno from the booze i went to pot which helped me more than anything else including the meds they give me. no all i do is isolate in my house wanting to go out but knowing as soon as i get there ill be in major trouble plus i now have the worst road rage and it scares my family mostly uncontrollable