Just a question .

[Kaylove498]

I have issues with my emotions I don't cry a whole lot anymore nor do i really feel the emotion of anything anymore.

I randomly I have dreams that send me into a crying state when I wake up they aren't really bad just dreams of memories that I almost forgot about emotionally.

But my main question is about what had been going on for months. I always know where I'm at who I'm around but sometimes I'll hear something or see something that reminds me of my past my child hood all the way into my adulthood.

Which those things are normal my concern is instead of emotionally feeling the memory I almost feel sick and like I'm there again and lost on how I'm really where I'm at and how could I be this old. When that happens I usually become blank and lost for a moment but recently memories like that have brought me to tears.

I don't want to say they are flash backs because they aren't bad but I am concerned at how often it's starting to happen once again I stay in reality I know where I'm at at all times I just have these moments and they are happening more often than before.

Should I be concerned? Is something more serious going on? Am I losing my mind?

 

[Freida]

I almost feel sick and like I'm there again and lost on how I'm really where I'm at and how could I be this old. When that happens I usually become blank and lost for a moment but recently memories like that have brought me to tears.

Pretty sure you aren't losing your mind :hug:

It sounds like it could be intrusive thoughts - and those can make you feel sick or a whole host of other physical symptoms. For me? My hands start to hurt when certain memories pop up - and I sometimes get sick to my stomach.

Are you working with a T? If so, make sure she knows this is happening so she can help. If not?

 

[Ronin]

Sounds to me as both intrusive thoughts or emotional flashbacks (the dream - memories making you cry)

And flashbacks, classic. (The 'feel back there' / as a child / lost from the now & then confused.)

Although it can be also panic attacks (that blip away from reality.)

In every case, all PTSD typical... not a new thing for concern... but something to bring up with your existing providers & watch if it increases / worsens.

 

[Friday]

I don't want to say they are flash backs because they aren't bad

Whether or not something is a flashback has nothing to do with how bad it is. Intense memories and intrusive thoughts can be infinitely worse than a flashback. And often are.

The major difference between a memory and a flashback? Is whether it’s remembered or relived.

If I’m smelling smoke, when there isn’t any? Feeling pressure on my cheek from my riflestock? Feeling cracks in my fingers from the grit and CLP in the cold? Those are flashbacks. Completely tame ones.

 

[Kaylove498]

Mine are definitely memories then. I do deal with severe anxiety I don't necessarily panic anymore but I do constantly now to make sure nothing happens to me.I have a fear of passing out so I constantly do things even if it's just pacing I don't settle until I'm completely exhausted.

I barely relax but I rather move constantly then full on panic .I do wish I could relax at times but I've come pretty far so I'm sure this will also get better.

 

[pam4him]

I randomly I have dreams that send me into a crying state when I wake up they aren't really bad just dreams of memories that I It kind of sounds like your mind is purging some old memories. You've worked through the emotion, or perhaps working through them via the dreams. And then something triggers a memory. Actually, we all experience odd or forgotten memories with certain triggers, especially smells. It's not too out of the norm for most people. Try to relax and allow your mind to process. You feel safe now and your mind is letting go a little at a time. It might help to journal these as they occur as another outlet. Prayers for peace ans strength.

 

[Kaylove498]

Thank you so much