Sufferer Just To Say Hello

[aslostasalice]

hi I am 23 years old and in September of last year, my boyfriend of a year attacked me, it was a one of incident that came completely out of the blue but still shook the very foundations of my life.

it has left me noticeably deformed (as the docs say), with physical aches and pains as well as the emotional cracks.

ive been misdiagnosed twice and was on the wrong medication for months, but im getting there slowly. im hoping that beings able to be in contact with people with similar experiences will help me.

thanks for reading :)

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

I'm so sorry to hear about your attack X I hope you had arrested and charged for an act that's so vile and sickening X I let mine continue for years without doing anything about it as I was too scared until he raped me X now I suffer from cptsd and my life is an emotional roller coaster of a mess that I try so hard on a daily basis to live a flashback free day X I pray for your recovery X welcome to the forum X

 

[aslostasalice]

I'm so sorry to hear about your attack X I hope you had arrested and charged for an act that's...

 

[aslostasalice]

hi don't know wether I managed to post before, I had him sentenced he got 3 years with a minimum of 14 months so he may be out this December.

im sorry to hear of your attack, we can both look back at how far we have come and how strong it has made us though.

here to talk if you need me
tanks again for reading and replying

 

[ghotiff]

Welcome :)

There is lots of great support here. I'm glad you found us.

 

[DissociativeJunkie]

It is amazing how scarring these events can be. Physically and emotionally. But I want you to know you're going to be okay. Don't think of yourself as deformed because that brings negative connotation. When I was wrong diagnosed as schizophrenic, I use to tell myself I had a beautiful mind, not a really screwed up one. Although my diagnosis has changed, I continue to tell myself I have a beautiful mind, and try to avoid saying negative things about it. The beauty is in the human experience, and when you're better it makes being better all the more amazing. Or that's my theory anyway, because I'm just beginning recovery and I don't know what its like on the end of the tunnel. But sometimes you just have to believe it will be better.

 

[kona355]

@aslostasalice - I also just joined this week and have been helped quite a lot already. It feels like I've found a home of sorts. You have a lot to offer, just by sharing. It takes a lot of courage to do so.

@DissociativeJunkie - Thank you for the encouraging mention of having a beautiful mind. It's so true (a light has just come on for me), and yet until this moment haven't been able to see that truth. It's like I've been viewing my mind as corrupted, like a computer program, beyond repair. But now, thinking about how really our minds remain beautiful, just bruised maybe, by trauma, I don't feel so...like damaged goods. Thank you for that.

 

[intothelight]

@aslostasalice Welcome!