Less ashamed...finally talked about it

[purplebear13]

This isn't even a question or anything, I'm just really...proud and overwhelmed at the same time. So I was finally able to start talking about my csa in therapy today. It was so difficult, but so rewarding.

While talking about the setting of the event I started to get extremely embarrassed and dissociate. My t noticed right away and asked me to look at her. She told me that I wasn't alone, I had nothing to feel embarrassed about, and that if it made me feel any better, she had most likely heard it before. I ended up sitting on the floor, so she did too and I talked about it. For the first time. I finally talked about it. She held my hands and told me that nothing about what happened was my fault and that she was sorry that I had to experience it. Then she asked me if I needed I hug. I REALLY DID...maybe she's a mind reader ? She hugged me for like 5 minutes and I just fell apart. I've never cried about it before, but I did then and it felt really good.

Anyways, just wanted to share. It's so difficult, but I feel a lot better about things already.
Keep on fighting strong! You can do this!

?Abby

 

[Rumors]

Oh wow... sounds like your therapist is very supportive and is really tuned in to what you need. I am so glad you were able to get that out. Sending you loads of strength for your journey.

 

[blackemerald1]

I was finally able to start talking about my csa in therapy today. It was so difficult, but so rewarding.

Well done @Abby4015 - you are on your way!

 

[Missycat]

@Abby4015 - wow well done you. That is a massive step and you should be proud of yourself.
Im so pleased for you and its great you have a supportive t who knows and understands your needs. Keep up the good work and all the best on your healing journey.

 

[piratelady]

This is amazing!! I’m so glad that you were able to share something so difficult and felt supported.

 

[Freida]

Anyways, just wanted to share. It's so difficult, but I feel a lot better about things already.

Yeah!!!! that first step is huge -- and you did it!