True crime is conflicting to me for precisely these reasons. On one hand there are undeniable positive aspects. There are cases that I do follow within the International Criminal Court as I attempt to reconcile my trauma within its broader legal and social context.It's only entertainment. I don't understand how they can consume content about my abusers or about any abusers for fun. I hate true crime with a passion. "Let's sip tea and gossip and giggle about a crime against humanity.
It can be educational. It does provide an opportunity to hear stories that are relative to our own. It allows for an objective experience, especially when dealing with extremes. I struggle with my memory and it helps to have a factual recording outside of myself. This really did happen. I'm not lying. I'm not crazy.
Unfortunately, so much of true crime content is sensationalistic and just plain exploitative. There are news articles about my actual life out there that are written in a humorous way, and that's really challenging. And that's hard, given that the nature of being a crime victim is so rooted in exploitation and vulnerability and dehumanization and objectification and sadistic amusement all on its own.