Life Happens Right? Not In "our" World

[Punky143]

I'm very angry. Very. First week back to work after having surgery. That alone is enough to set us off. Then added to it, Murphy's law. All week, despite having any control, its snowed every time I have my meeting with my T. Every week for the past 3 weeks its snowed on the day I'm scheduled to be seen and this week its been both days, even today's that was rescheduled was cancelled. Shame on me for having any expectations. I don't know who else to say this too that won't already confirm how frigging crazy we are. So thats why I'm venting here. In the past when (T) has been on vacation, its always been an issue with "them" and we hate in every way that we think this way but we can't help it. A part of me understands, gets the logic but more parts aren't. I'm going frigging crazy, the noise in my head is awful and continues to get worse. I'm ready to throw my hands up and not schedule anymore appts so no expectations are made. I have no faith anymore that scheduled appts will actually happen. I'm at a loss. Feeling more than horrible...

 

[FireSign8]

I hope you feel a bit better knowing it is a safe website to vent on!
Otherwise, I can only offer a hug to you!:clown::wideeyed::poop: I find no emoji for a hug!:poop::arghh;!

 

[joeylittle]

@Punky143 - forgive me if I've asked you this before - is it possible for you access a strong DBT program in your area?

 

[NightSky]

I see my T once a week and my session this week was canceled due to snow. And two weeks before that my T had to cancel for her own reasons. And I'm feeling the same way. It's super frustrating. My T causally says "let's schedule for next week" when she cancels, and I feel rejected. She only works tue, wed and thurs and part of me wants to say "how about coming into work on a Friday to make up for some missed sessions?" But since she doesn't suggest it, I'm stuck being "ok" with waiting a week, last minute. And after two weeks I feel this distance and these walls that are so hard to beat down after one week, let alone two.
It's life, it happens. My rational brain gets that. But the other part just feels let down and unimportant and afraid, like you, of having expectations. its rough.

 

[Punky143]

@Punky143 - forgive me if I've asked you this before - is it possible for you acc...

Sadly, I've completed DBT twice, yes I had to take it 2x because usually if we're taught something, you can guarantee it gets lost.