Living with a monster - Did anybody else have a borderline mother?

Did anybody else have a borderline mother?

That shit is next level. She would go on these rampages, she became this monster that would yell and scream all night long.

She didn't leave the house very much, but when she did it was a nice relief but it never lasted long. She'd be gone for hours and I'd be in a state of panic waiting and wondering when she's come back. If I heard a car door close outside, or a car drove past the house, any noise really, I'd run to the front and look out the window to see if it was her. I was in constant anxiety not knowing when she would come home. Safety was never guaranteed.

This is something I've noticed has still stuck with me. Whenever I'm home alone, and someone in my house hold goes out and I'm not sure when they will be back, I go into a similar state of panic. It's not as intense as before and I'm not afraid, but if I hear the sound of cars I'll run to the front to see if they're home. It's strange to me.