Hi I am new to this forum, not real sure what to say but just wanted to share somewhere I guess.
My name is Jamie, I am a happy wife and happy mother, living with PTSD. I guess I might as well just jump right into this. I was raped at 14, uncle f&*ked with me two weeks later, my father was murdered two years ago by my step brother, and needless to say, my life has never been the same.
I do not victimize myself. I do not believe in that, but I am tormented with nightmares, and so much anxiety it is unreal.
I think about and dream about how my stepbrother stabbed my dad over six times in the neck and side and it hurts me so much in ways that I have no words to describe.
I do always have a therapist and all that shit, but sometimes, it is very hard. Ahh. I believe I have convinced myself that nothing I have experienced is bad enough for me to have any issues, but I know logically that is a lie.
Well that's all I want to share, all I can share, thank you.
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My name is Jamie, I am a happy wife and happy mother, living with PTSD. I guess I might as well just jump right into this. I was raped at 14, uncle f&*ked with me two weeks later, my father was murdered two years ago by my step brother, and needless to say, my life has never been the same.
I do not victimize myself. I do not believe in that, but I am tormented with nightmares, and so much anxiety it is unreal.
I think about and dream about how my stepbrother stabbed my dad over six times in the neck and side and it hurts me so much in ways that I have no words to describe.
I do always have a therapist and all that shit, but sometimes, it is very hard. Ahh. I believe I have convinced myself that nothing I have experienced is bad enough for me to have any issues, but I know logically that is a lie.
Well that's all I want to share, all I can share, thank you.
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