It was the first holiday season I was not alone for in about 3 years...maybe 4, I lost count.
I can relate to the feeling of depression around this time, and I think I am depressed at the moment, not only from over indulging in weed and drinking on new years eve and at christmas( it always seems like harmless fun at the time, and then crashes days later.)
I was invited to a party, but I didn't really want to go and wasn't particularly fond of the person who invited me, so I resolved to stay home and paint, when I was prompted to call a friend from my course, who invited me around toparty with her and her family and friends...so I went on an adventure.
I felt really blessed to be around people I feel really comfortable around and enjoyed their company...and felt like I was part of the family...which was so nice. I painted in a communal painting we all contributed to, and played dress ups to nurture the inner child and stayed up til dawn to watch the sun come up with people laughing all around me. It was really wonderful. I think I appreciated it all the more for not having had anyone to spend it with for years.
My brother sent me a text and there was no crap, he just said he loved me wherever I was.
Today and yesterday I started back at my new job, and I think I am depressed again. At least that is the feedback I received from one of the women I work with, who says she is sensitive to peoples energy. I have been depressed so much in my life that I hardly even notice when I get that way anymore. It's more of a normal state than happiness...unfortunately.
Hope you all were able to have nice chats and find something good about this holiday period.
I can relate to the feeling of depression around this time, and I think I am depressed at the moment, not only from over indulging in weed and drinking on new years eve and at christmas( it always seems like harmless fun at the time, and then crashes days later.)
I was invited to a party, but I didn't really want to go and wasn't particularly fond of the person who invited me, so I resolved to stay home and paint, when I was prompted to call a friend from my course, who invited me around toparty with her and her family and friends...so I went on an adventure.
I felt really blessed to be around people I feel really comfortable around and enjoyed their company...and felt like I was part of the family...which was so nice. I painted in a communal painting we all contributed to, and played dress ups to nurture the inner child and stayed up til dawn to watch the sun come up with people laughing all around me. It was really wonderful. I think I appreciated it all the more for not having had anyone to spend it with for years.
My brother sent me a text and there was no crap, he just said he loved me wherever I was.
Today and yesterday I started back at my new job, and I think I am depressed again. At least that is the feedback I received from one of the women I work with, who says she is sensitive to peoples energy. I have been depressed so much in my life that I hardly even notice when I get that way anymore. It's more of a normal state than happiness...unfortunately.
Hope you all were able to have nice chats and find something good about this holiday period.
