My therapist is concerned that I have been being self destructive in my behaviors...I cut and basically than passed out in the middle of writing her a text about doing that she is concerned I will do that and say my roommate comes home and sees me like that she would probably call 911 and I would be in the hospital. Then would come the question can I live alone I also will be alone for the week and she is not an alarmist but she is like if something happens because you act on an urge who would know...she is also concerned because I keep going back to things that will trigger me and cause me to act out. She mentioned how with my extensive trauma I should have gone to long term trauma treatment but I have a job I don't want to leave and stuff so I say no. I don't know what that would entail I have been inpatient and long term treatment for my eating disorder multiple times but never trauma so never dealt with the route cause. I did EMDR it did not work for me I couldn't fully open up it wasn't my regular therapist I was also active in my eating disorder at the time not sure that helped any...I don't know even where there is long term trauma treatment or anything it's a scary thought...