Looking For Support From Those Who Understand And Dont Judge

[SunnyBrookFarm]

I was little. Sometimes I look at little children and think, Oh crap! I was that little and innocent when I was being abused.

Jilly - I do this too - in fact a major trigger for me was when my daughter and then later my niece turned the age I was when my abuse began. It can be heartbreaking to realize.

 

[TLight]

Jilly...........life has dealt you some crappy cards. The world must seem to you to be a pretty awful place right now......

I hope you are pursuing your healing like a plant pursuing the sunshine...........Bless you.

 

[Anton]

Hi Jilly.

Reading about the things you went through is difficult. I'm unable to understand why people would be willing to inflict such pain upon others.
I hope visiting the forum helps you out.

 

[JillyB]

Thank you, everyone, I haven't figured out if this place is helping or not. I do feel safe here, although most days I leave this site with an incredible heaviness in my heart for all of the people who have been hurt and traumatized. And yes seeing the children at the age when I first began to be abused can be a trigger. I makes me damn angry.
I mourn my childhood like a death, because I never really had one. One thing I can say is that I get so much joy from the laughter of children. And that, I believe is so very healing in it's own way.

 

[fin]

Welcome understanding I hope I am too for you Absolutely I struggle some days with me and mine but please welcome Jilly and my apologies if cryptic Iama little new also here

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