Losing Time

[jjh29]

She knows I have ptsd. She is not a trauma therapist.

 

[Abstract]

Hi jjh! Not in any way meaning to imply you should change and it is entirely down to how comfortable you feel but it might be worthwhile reading this: [DLMURL]https://www.ptsdforum.org/c/threads/what-is-a-trauma-therapist.16495/[/DLMURL]

There are a lot of different approaches to trauma therapy with therapists that specialise in trauma too.

 

[jjh29]

Yea I probably need to find a new therapist in trauma, I just didnt really know there was a difference until now.

 

[circe47]

I lose time all the time. I can never tell what day of the week it is. It will be Monday, and before I know it, it is Friday and a whole week has passed that I can barely remember. I also have conversations that I don't recall. For instance, my son will say that I gave him permission or said something and I have no idea what he's talking about. I also get triggered by certain people and can go from calm and mellow to a raging maniac the next.

I know it's not funny, but I had an event in the grocery store where I wanted to buy frozen chicken and my sister and boyfriend tried to explain the merits of buying something cheaper. Feeling like I was six years old and being reprimanded by my "parents" I had a tantrum like a two year old in the middle of the aisle, complete with yelling and stomping my feet. The next day I only have a vague memory of the event. I think I have at the very least co-conscious DID.

My sister who has know me her whole life says she KNOWS and can SEE when I switch out. I am in her opinion, NOT her sister during these episodes.

 

[jjh29]

I have lost time once so far. (At least I think I did) I have no idea how long this would of lasted because I thought I had fell asleep (it was when I had already laid down). However, that evening I was stressed! I went from being my numb self to feeling attacked and lashing out with an immense amount of anger. I hadn't felt anger like that in so long and I remember feeling really weird but I dismissed it to being blood pressure or something. I didn't know yet that I had ptsd, I found out weeks later. Had I of known I would of paid more attention to myself. It's crazy what our minds can do after experiencing trauma.

I also have moments like that! My son will say he told me something about school or whatever and I will totally not remember! So I will be at the last minute scrambling around trying to get what he needs for that particular event at the last minute. Ugh, I hate that. I also never knew that was part of ptsd.

 

[circe47]

OMG! Not a month ago my son was trying to explain how he manipulated a three-way conversation between me, him, and the husband into me and the husband getting all worked up and arguing- totally deflecting the attention from himself (son). When he tried to explain it the next day- I had NO CLUE about the content of the conversation.