Loss Of Time

[Punky143]

This always happens. Then I'm angry and blame others for not allowing me to ever have the time. Then I realize I've only done it to myself once again. The one night I get off, go off the map I call it. I look forward to window shopping but its usually my appointment day and I used to meet up with a friend, but I no longer can. So, what happens is, I or whoever, drives. Drives to random places. Gets irritated when someone is behind her. Is on some quest. A quest to find this perfect place. A place of solitude for whatever person or mood their in. Today, we're going on 3 hours. Most of the issue lies with the fact that absolutely no one, knows where I am, and when I'll be home. We both love it, yet feel guilty and mean. It's been a day. Been one of those, my body might of been at work but thats about it plus more days.

 

[BuckarooBanzai]

. A quest to find this perfect place. A place of solitude for whatever person or mood their in. Today, we're going on 3 hours. Most of the issue lies with the fact that absolutely no one, knows where I am, and when I'll be home.

I did this often when I had DID.

I never knew where I was going. I just knew I had to get away, to escape. Never figured out what I was running from. Sometimes, I'd even settle into a motel room (Got weird looks from the clerk because I was so close to home). I felt wonderfully safe in that motel room, given that no-one could find me.