Magical Thinking

[lostforgottensoul]

So it's a sort of exposure therapy, going from doing something I'm afraid of first with lots of support and reassurance, then going on to do it on my own.

Exactly! Its how my emotions "grew up", learning like I would of back then, sort of.

I'd need to start with something that has a short feedback loop where I can tell pretty quickly whether it happened or not, as opposed to something more open-ended where it could happen anytime in the future.

Yeah, thats what I meant by small...well that and not something like a nuke being dropped on Canada (using my own thoughts there) but you know, something that you can start with that if it came true it wouldnt be like the entire world, or even your world would fall apart. Start with small fears (skmething that woyld he easier dor you to write with your therapist) with the reassurence, continue with small on your own them move to bigger with reassurence and bigger on your own etc.

Im sure your therapist is just as patient and understanding as mine (and i dont know how mine has put up with me for 7 yrs) but def run my therory and others by your therapist and this as well. Get your therapist's opinion and put it higher than anyone's, including mine. ;)

 

[sun seeker]

His opinion is all this is because of the particulars of my trauma, and that continued work on trauma release is the main thing we need to focus on. We did get into a way to differentiate between what is a real threat and what is imagined, and it worked for a while and then stopped. I'll ask if we can work on refining that. It wasn't a huge priority for a while, but seems like it is again.

 

[sun seeker]

His opinion

I should say that I haven't actually told him how bad the magical thinking gets, or about the problem with believing that writing it down will make it happen. So I should tell him. I have all these great ideas about things to work on, but then by the time I see him something else comes up and we work on whatever is in the forefront.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

So I should tell him. I have all these great ideas about things to work on, but then by the time I see him something else comes up and we work on whatever is in the forefront.

He should at least know. If working on it isnt a prioity, I get that. My therapist has been wanting to revisit EMDR for about 2 months but somethung else always has prioity and so work on what you need to.

I would think writing something with him that has a very small loop time wouldnt take long and if you cant do it on your own yet, then do it with him once a session until you can. My therapist gives me homework and we are normally working on a few things at once.

But id say he needs to know how bad it is at least and see what he thinks about it and then move from there.

 

[sun seeker]

Yes, you're right. I'll tell him.

It continually amazes me how the more I tell people about what goes on for me, the more I find is not normal. It gives me some hope, because if life has been such a huge struggle for me as I juggle all these symptoms, just imagine what I could do with my life if the symptoms were to get better!