I was abused at the age of 9 by another man, he was around 15 at the time. I froze, it started off as grooming then escalated over time to a game of hide and seek then I was told do this to me and i'll do it to.
I didnt process what happened until my late teens early 20s when it resurfaced, before then i acted like it didnt happen.
Since I told family about it I always hear people mumbling and talking negative about me saying I'm gay, it's okay, and even my girlfriend. I know that I'm not but it is really bothering me that people are saying this because it cuts at deeper wounds of me questioning my sexuality because I didn't stop it.
Does anyone else experience this? Can that trauma cause me to hear these things??
I didnt process what happened until my late teens early 20s when it resurfaced, before then i acted like it didnt happen.
Since I told family about it I always hear people mumbling and talking negative about me saying I'm gay, it's okay, and even my girlfriend. I know that I'm not but it is really bothering me that people are saying this because it cuts at deeper wounds of me questioning my sexuality because I didn't stop it.
Does anyone else experience this? Can that trauma cause me to hear these things??