Makes Me Nervous Not To Be Believed and Husband

[Felicitas]

hi Hodge and Veiled!
ok I understand more now. I will start writing my diary. I almost can't believe that you really want to hear my story. It has been so hard to do it all alone for so long. Just now I can't control my tears. It is hard for so long to deal with all of it.
I am still not sure yet about all the forum rules, but as soon as i am allowed you can find my diary (private)

 

[becvan]

For a better understanding of the forum and all the rules please read this entire section.

[DLMURL]http://www.ptsdforum.org/forum45.html[/DLMURL]

Thanks,

bec

 

[Felicitas]

made a mistake, i mean I want to join "diary ptsd' or diary members
i find it quite exhausting to figure out all the computer stuff and organize my self in this forum

 

[Felicitas]

Thank you!

I think it's pretty normal to feel your trauma isn't so important, it's different from others, and/or you won't be believed. I felt very different when I first came here, and I struggled with that for a long time. But I am still here after more than a year, and I definitely do belong! You don't have to write all your trauma out in detail right away, if it's too hard just take your time. No one will judge you for that.

Thank you!
It is so welcomed strange to be invited to write about the trauma, because I tried to tell people about it for years. I can't believe you and others really want to hear more, that's why I tried to keep it short.

 

[Bella78]

Felicitas, as a carer and not a PTSD sufferer, I cannot begin to imagine how you are feeling, and I feel for you that you are finding it so hard to believe people want to hear your story. I would like to hear your story too when you are ready.

From what little I have seen of this forum and the hope it has filled my heart with, I expect that once you feel safe to share your story, you will get responses from other who understand just what you are going thru and you will be so glad you took that step.

Also, don't worry about the computer stuff, your posts are turning out just fine. You remind me of my mum like that, bless her, it's sweet.

 

[hodge]

Hi Felicitas,

Just wanted to let you know that after reading more of your posts in other threads, I am getting a better idea of your traumas. I definitely recommend writing them out in a diary. It's helped me a lot.

Take care,

Hodge

 

[hodge]

Oh, just wanted to add - sounds like the diary section you want is Trauma Members. That's where mine is. Those diaries can be read by all registered members here, but can't be found in search engines, so can't be read by the general public.

 

[Kathy]

Felicitas, here is a direct link to Trauma Members:

[DLMURL]http://www.ptsdforum.org/forum40.html[/DLMURL]

Simply go there and begin your diary as a new thread. Good luck!

 

[Felicitas]

Thank You For All Your Replies, Makes Me Feel Much Safer Already

 

[Felicitas]

encouraging

Bella 78, it sounds very encouraging what you write, thank you. I am actually not 40 yet. How old are you?

 

[Bella78]

Hi Felicitas. I am turning 30 soon very soon (!!!!). My mother who doubts her computer skills so sweetly is just over 50.

I did not mean to suggest that you were old and therefore confident on this forum. But she doubts her abilities with her new computer as you have suggested you perhaps also do. Although with her it is due to her inexperience (but she does not let that stop her!) but I suspect with you maybe it is your doubts in yourself in general?

Don't doubt yourself or your posts, we all care for what you have to say more than you realise.
:Hug_emoticon:

 

[Felicitas]

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I have this very strong side in me that kept me going for so many years. But when triggers come I doubt my self.

It is very good to hear that people want to read what I have to say.
It is just the opposite message from what i heared during trauma time.
And I did have good wise input at that time!!