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I don't believe I have ever "made love", I have had random one night stands aimed at either proving something to myself, calculated sexual experiences in an attempt to forget/numb/erase my past. I have been molested by a brother, groomed but rebelled against my uncle, I have been coerced, forced at gunpoint, forced by a then friend after numerous times telling him no only to wake up with him inside me and I consider it the worst repeatedly many times a week for 13 years by an abusive ex-husband.
At this stage in my life I have chosen celibacy, not out of some desire to remain chaste for religious reasons but because I know that it would amount at this part of my life to be something I did for the wrong reasons and not because of any emotional connection.
My T says that we are doing great work and that once I begin to believe I have value and deserve to be treated better, it will always be just sex.
At this stage in my life I have chosen celibacy, not out of some desire to remain chaste for religious reasons but because I know that it would amount at this part of my life to be something I did for the wrong reasons and not because of any emotional connection.
My T says that we are doing great work and that once I begin to believe I have value and deserve to be treated better, it will always be just sex.
