Maybe Ptsd Destroyed My Relationship

[CaliSoca]

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how do i delete posts?

 

[joeylittle]

@CaliSoca, you can't delete a post fully, only edit the content as you've done. But since you're here, do you want to try again? Whatever it is you need to ask, I am sure you aren't alone in it.

 

[CaliSoca]

@joeylittle I noticed that it seems like people can share posts to social networking sites and it made me a bit uncomfortable that my story could be shared like that.
my relationship ended because my ptsd was an issue. He didn't understand it, or didn't fully understand it. He was a bit cruel about it during the breakup. He said I'm crazy, now he says he doesn't care. I'm so mad at myself for letting it come between us. Or, well, angry that I have to deal with it. Our relationship was great.... but wasn't when the ptsd occasionally arose. I was fine of some time then i got upset about something and it went downhill from there.

 

[joeylittle]

He was a bit cruel about it during the breakup. He said I'm crazy, now he says he doesn't care.

That's rough. I can understand how it would be hard and confusing to have someone kind of throw it in your face like that, or with that kind of judgemental viewpoint. I'd call it straight-up cruel, not just a bit cruel.

I'm so mad at myself for letting it come between us. Or, well, angry that I have to deal with it.

But try and remember its a two way street. With PTSD, I think, we can't ever really fully separate ourselves from the illness, if that makes sense. So PTSD is part of you, and whomever you are with needs to be able to meet you halfway there. But angry that you have to deal with it? Hell yes.

As far as privacy stuff goes, you'll of course need to come to whatever your levels of comfort are. The Trauma Diaries (Members) section isn't accessed by search engines, and members are (as far as I've ever observed) very respectful of each others' stories. And thanks for writing back. :)

 

[CaliSoca]

That's rough. I can understand how it would be hard and confusing to have someone kind of throw it i...

thanks @joeylittle. I guess he's just too wrapped up in his own busy schedule and whatnot to pay attention to that part of MY life. I don't know if that's a deal breaker. I feel like it should be but i do care about him. All i know for sure right now is that I'm deeply hurt.

and thanks, will check out that other forum.