Mee
Diamond Member
hi,
I have ptsd ( surprise! ). There is some discussion with whether is actually cptsd but I was fine and had no problems before an incident last year and I believe I always would have been fine with out that incident. I am going with ‘normal ‘ ptsd though recognise we are all products of our upbringings :).
Um. What else to say?
I have a great therapist I like very much and trust and I am challenging lots about myself which is an interesting process, if traumatic itself at times. I asked to drive the process harder recently as I was feeling a dip in ‘mood’ that scared me.
I am desperate, desperate to get beyond this. I have accepted, reluctantly, I cannot go back and be ‘the old me’ but I cannot stay like this much longer either .
I am hoping to find people who understand the desperation of being ‘stuck’. And who are fighting, and hopefully winning against this ! Because that’s really what I want.
Right now I am pretty terrified anywhere out of my bedroom accept my therapists place. ( this is so unlike the old me that it seems ridiculous) . My favourite place used to be outside, in my garden or in nature; I panic now outside :(. I like bed: a lot
Hoping to start to get out of bed soon:
Mee
I have ptsd ( surprise! ). There is some discussion with whether is actually cptsd but I was fine and had no problems before an incident last year and I believe I always would have been fine with out that incident. I am going with ‘normal ‘ ptsd though recognise we are all products of our upbringings :).
Um. What else to say?
I have a great therapist I like very much and trust and I am challenging lots about myself which is an interesting process, if traumatic itself at times. I asked to drive the process harder recently as I was feeling a dip in ‘mood’ that scared me.
I am desperate, desperate to get beyond this. I have accepted, reluctantly, I cannot go back and be ‘the old me’ but I cannot stay like this much longer either .
I am hoping to find people who understand the desperation of being ‘stuck’. And who are fighting, and hopefully winning against this ! Because that’s really what I want.
Right now I am pretty terrified anywhere out of my bedroom accept my therapists place. ( this is so unlike the old me that it seems ridiculous) . My favourite place used to be outside, in my garden or in nature; I panic now outside :(. I like bed: a lot
Hoping to start to get out of bed soon:
Mee