Memories Of Abuse But No Good Memories

[theshadowoftheliving]

@Bird33 Yes, my therapist would try to ground me, but it just didn't always work. I'd come out of it, but immediatley have no memory of the time that just passed. And now, I have no therapist - I've been fighting with insurance for ages, trying to get coverage, never mind services - but that's a whole other conversation.

Working on daily mindfulness now, hoping that will help. The great thing about my memory is that as long as I'm having a good day, I feel totally fine - but then, a bad day can almost ruin me. Sigh.

 

[Chincho]

Until five years ago I had no memories of my childhood. It was as if my life had started when I was 12.

Five years and three months ago, I suddenly remembered my abuse. I've been in therapy since then and some of my chilhood memories have come back, but mostly the bad ones.

Last week I told my therapist that I don't want to remember anything else. I'd rather live without remembering my chilhood.

 

[Bird33]

@theshadowoftheliving I am sorry to hear your insurance won't provide you coverage. That is so wrong.
I find mindfulness really helps. Allowing yourself to feel whatever the feeling is you are having and it definitely helps. You are not fighting it and you can say "I am anxious or sad or whatever and it is okay."
I also find yoga helpful. I hope you can get help soon!
@Chincho I am so sorry you have to have those memories and they are so painful. I hope what they say is true that if the memories are coming out it is because we are ready for them. I am not sure how true that is though.