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Hi! My name is Elisabeth. I was diagnosed in 2010, but have had symptoms since I was in elementary school. My father is an alcoholic has been my whole life. I am from a very small town. I was bullied from 1st grade on. My younger sister had a substance abuse problem and tragically passed away this year. My last three jobs I quit because of my PTSD. I feel attacked in social and work situations. I am currently trying to apply for disability (hello stress).

The holidays seem to be very stressful for me when I go to my home town. My father still drinks but he has mellowed with age and drinks wine instead of liquor. My parents have adopted my niece although they constantly point out they are to old to do so and my mother....is just plain mean. I struggle to put my pain and stress into words and trying to navigate the treacherous waters of small town life is perilous. How do you explain what's going on inside your head? Do you say "I am sorry my emotions have hijacked my brain?" I just don't know. I hope I can make it through without a meltdown!!
 
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Merry Christmas!

You CAN do it. Think of all the times it has been hard to stand back up, and yet you have. Allow yourself to be aware of those negative feelings but embrace the positive ones. I know how hard these times can be; however' we have been able to stand on our own feet and make it this far. We deserve to rediscover and love ourselves again.
 
Welcome to the forum!

I grew up with an alcoholic father too. As an adult, I couldn't go near him if he had started drinking again. I would instant revert back to the terrorized child I was. I didn't have options as a kid. As an adult, I do. But I know family relations are complex and sometimes you have to choose the lesser of two evils.

I hope that you feel free to walk out the door if you feel unsafe in any way. And when you do leave, please do as much as you can to comfort yourself because if you are anything like me, you could have been triggered.

Hope to see you soon in this healing online place!
 
Welcome to the forum. Familial relations with an alcoholic can be, at best, difficult. I grew up with an alcoholic father so I do understand.
You will find support here on the forum, and will make some good friends.
 
Hello and Welcome, Elisabeth!

PTSD in itself is difficult and then when you add on other stressors, well, things can get a bit overwhelming. I think you will find some support and understanding on the forum.
 
I appreciate the support! It truly does help and thank you! :)
 
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Hi elisabeth,

Welcome to MyPTSD forum! :)

I hope that you survived Christmas without a meltdown. Check out the information about emotional regulation and there are some really good techniques that can help when you emotions start to hijack your brain.

Wishing you the best.

Debbie
 
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